So at like 12:01 my time, like 10 ppl called me to say happy birthday, and were all angry they weren't the first one. I'm also really surprised 10 ppl remembered my birthday. And I have exactly one year, before i move out, and I can't wait. But aside from that I get to go do lots of fun school stuff today, and get out how my schooling is gunna go from here -.-

I had to say goodbye to my dad today. It sucked. He's gone for 15 months. I hate the military. He was like an ass before he left. And part of me wants to be angry at him for it, but I don't know if he meant it, and I can't be angry at him for anything right now. I mean he's never done it before when he's left. I think its cuz my brother came down and his language and stuff turned on to him. I hated it, I just couldn't say anything about it, cause my mom would have went off on me. I hate being here. And I hate that this is his 3rd tour over there, and I hate the fact he was supposed to be stable for a few more months but because he changed units because my grades weren't good enough for a stabilization in Washington. All of that you get to be stable after a tour goes away.

I got my cat back today. I'm pretty excited. She's lost a little weight, but she's alright. Currently she's marching around my sisters basement all angry at me, giving me the cold shoulder, then decides she wants my attention for 20 minutes for me to pet her, then goes back to being angry at me. But she's purring so she can't be TOO angry at me. I called my friend once I was in the car w/ her. She told me if I ever get a divorce from someone it will be over my cat. Cause apparently i love my cat more than any human being. And it's probably true, I call my cat baby and everything, and I suck up to my cat when I've managed to piss her off. Mostly by petting her and talking to her. I dunno. I missed her. And I'm glad shes sitting in my lap. But picking up my cat was completely fun. I got to go see my ex. I got death glared at the door, then sort of a pity smile of please please please please hug me, and then handed me my cat. But my cat could not leave w/o making a scene, she knocked everything out of her window. My cat is completely ungraceful and she knows it and doesn't try to hide it. ^^

Woke up this morning to find out that my brother and my mom are leaving for a week. And now since they BOTH keep coming in and out of my room bitching at me for something, I'm awake. And I think I went to bed at 8:30 am, and its now Just after 12pm. I'm hella tired, and I just want back in bed. So yea during the week I have the house to myself. It makes me happy. Either way, I think their gone, so off to bed I am going.

I end up burning myself, not realizing and then continue to burn myself but I don't notice. So my hand has a blister on it. =/ and it sort of hurts. I mean I know the hot boiling was on my hand for like 20 seconds atleast, but I didn't feel it, same when i sort of stuck my hand in the pot... =/, my hand is kinda raw and it hurts. *sigh* guess i shouldn't be typing. I think imma go take some tylonol and get rid of my headache ><

So I just got done playing through God of War 2. It makes me happy. I sort of played it non-stop for 2 days. So I'm kinda sad that it was sorta short. or maybe just playing it as much as I did took me through faster? I dunno, but I only missed one power up thingie, and that makes me happy. So I'll probably go back thru and play it again, just cause I dunno first game in a long time that I just couldn't put down. I want to go buy the first one now. But alas I have no money to do so. Sadness. Oh well. Ah I can't wait to go back thru the different modes this game gives you. So anyways, my brother is here now. and it makes me happy. I have someone to play games w/ and my mom is easing up on me. Cause if she yells at me for sommin stupid he defends me =/. Which is a good thing. Anyways, I think I'm gonna go start playing back through. Since my gf got grounded for a month and I have no way of talking to her. I have nothing else to do until maybe I get a text or a call. But thats not likely. *cry*

heh, so my parents are out of town, and I have the house to myself. It's nice and I kind of like it a lot. I'm cleaning my room and stuff, and I'm not getting my mom yelling at me down my back. Which makes me want to clean my room rather then get all pissed off and not do it because she wants me to. My mom left a house key w/ her friend and shes aloud to come over unannounced and check on me. Which yea sure I don't care. I think my mom expects me to have some crazy wild party, but since I know nobody it would just be me all alone. And theres that fact I'm anti social and would rather avoid a party. Either way I'm highly amused and I'm going to go back to reading w/ the house all nice and quiet. :)

So the real estate guy is coming over next week, and we're putting our house up for sale. I can't wait. Cause that means I'm closer to going back to WA. Sad thing is, we're driving across country, so I have 5ish days in a car with my brother and my mom. Which I guess isn't too bad, but I won't have internet and since my gf doesn't have a phone really no way to talk to her. Sorta my MSN is set up so offline messages go to my cell. So it won't be too bad. Just 5 days in a car. Ouch. I'm just worried about me and my mother being so close for so long. I know thats just many many angry fights waiting to happen. Good thing is my lappy has a car charger, and I have headphones. :). So I can probably be lost in my own little world that way.

More fun news, I'm going out of town this weekend, to go see my cousins and my brother. Hopefully at least, dad needs to get a mileage pass, (damn military making everything complicated) and we're not sure if he's gunna get it. I hope he does, I'll get to see my cousin, after hating each other when we were younger, and biting, scratching, leaving toy marks on each other screaming yelling, and just brutally beating each other, we're like best friends now. My mom still dislikes her, and I think is trying to put it in my head that she's a bad person still. It's not working too much. But I know what that weekend will probably turn into. A giant gaming party, hopefully. Since we all play the same online game, and her boyfriend has a laptop, as do I and I'll be bringing mine, and she'll use her desktop. Good way to con them into helping me level that character. Hehe, if not at least get to see family I haven't seen in like 6 years. It's odd to me, I used to go see them every other summer, and I grew up there for probably close to 4 years. I miss it. Hmm, I think thats it for my rant today. I'm gunna go crawl back in bed.

Sooo somehow I'm not sure how (okay thats a lie I know how) my gf's phone bill got up to 400 dollars. :X. And I feel really really really bad. So her mom is one of those catholic harry potter is the devil gay is a sin person. So now she's really suspicious of me. So she called me and told me that she took her phone away, and that not to call her house phone. Then took her to a confessional. If I had money I'd offer to pay for at least part of the phone bill. But heh, i feel so bad. Cause it was my fault too. I mean she could have said lets not use our cellphones to talk. but I could have helped by telling her to use her house phone more often. But her mom does have my house phone number, and I'd rather if she Didn't call my mom so I'm going to be good and not attempt to call her house or let her call me with her house phone. Paranoia much? oh yea. but still 400 dollars? that just amazes me. So I'm sort of running around with my house phone next to me. Scared her moms gunna call. cause i know that won't go over well. For now I am off to go talk to my gf on msn, and write.

So someone told me if I didn't update they would cry. So I decided I'd update for them. Uhmmm, Soo I started talking to my ex. and its going alright. My gf doesn't mind. We talked about it. Pretty much since she went thru alot of it w/ me talking to her about it, and she pretty much said she doesn't like her, for what happened, but if i wanted to talk to her thats fine w/ her. Anyways, I want a song, and I can't find it, and its making me angry.
Soo as far as my geekness and World of warcraft goes. I got invited to go on a raid I'm not attuned to yet. And it makes me very sad. But oh well. I just sort of wanted to kick back tonight anyways. Theres also someone on msn distracting me too. since I've talked to her while trying to raid and do instances and stuff, and my group ends up dying. I think she's pretty proud of herself. Well I have words going thru my head and their pretty distracting too, so I'm goign to go write lame crappy poems that will amuse me. :)

So I finally convinced my mom to buy a Macbook pro. Not because I'm an apple fan girl. I personally hate mac and windows but, since she wants a new laptop, and all of them come w/ windows vista, and I know that would just cause more trouble than its worth for me, i talked her into a slightly more expensive macbook, mostly because it would reduce the amount of time I would spend over on her computer trying to figure out what she broke. And she likes to do picture editing and I'll end up putting some of mac's stuff on there to organize them. And Since windows has that nice cross over you can put Microsoft office on a apple computer It shouldn't be too much of a jump besides the interface. The biggest issue I'll have is teaching her house to use it that first week. On another note, apple gave me my money back and I resent the gift card more successfully now. Makes me happy, even if she thinks I shouldn't have gotten it for her. She finally accepted it. Good thing about gift cards, she can't really return it. :) cause I know she really wants to. Sometimes, I don't understand why some girls don't want to accept presents, I mean from what I've seen w/ her, She feels special but she doesn't like the attention she gets from it. *Sigh* I Should understand girls more than this...

So my laptop got here and everything checks out okay on it. I'm so happy with it right now, except that the hard drive is a bit small for my liking. You would think a 120gig hard drive would be big enough. =/ I've got too many games and random papers and pictures. heh, oh well. My moms a little upset because now I really don't leave my room. And the fact that my days and nights have switched. So she barley sees me. Cause i probably wake up at like 7-8:30 pm and go to bed around noon. Which amazingly enough works out quite well. Since My gf is pretty much on the same schedule. Though when she has to wake up she calls me and i talk to her till she has to go, then I fall back asleep. Pretty good system. And I get more sleep this way, Just my body clock is all messed up. Because I go to bed and wake up on the same day. Thats alright I'm slowly getting used to it. heh though another note, My gf's birthday is in about a week. So I went and bought her a itunes music gift card thing, except, apple then *lost* my order, but still managed to get my money....So i called them and their currently trying to fix the issue. Now I'm just waiting for an e-mail saying they credited my stuff back or correctly sent the card. I'm not sure if imma reorder from there again, 40 dollars is not a nice amount to just end up lost someplace. With all of my somewhat rant done. I'm off to go do my online courses.

So like my laptop comes in the mail today. So I'm constantly looking out my window for the fedex truck. I've been up all night since I generally don't sleep at night, my bed time is usally 9 am. but I'm too excited about my new toy. I have a slight addiction yes =/. I've cleaned the house up a bit, since both of my parents are working now, just anything to pass the time. I dug out my guitar hero and played with that for a bit too. Generally our fedex guy gets here around 12. and its only 10 am now. I know with my luck today he'll probably get here at 4. Either way. And I'm damning everything with a big white truck atm. Though I'm also kinda worried. Last computer that was shipped threw fedex got broken. Thus why I'm even getting a new laptop. I don't want another computer broken due to them. And if it breaks Imma freak. Even though I haven't used it yet. I'm tired of trying to share a computer with my mom, since I put my old graphics card in hers to play my games.

On another note. My wrist is acting up again. So I'm back to wearing my wrist brace. This is what I get for being an avid computer geek/gamer. Repetitive stress injury's. On my way to carpel tunnel. Or so says my doctor. And I wouldn't be surprised if he's right. Anyways I'm off to go write poems, call my gf, and wait impatiently by the door for my computer.

My ex called me today, and asked me for a password she no longer had access to of one of her old emails, that she sent the password to one of my emails(this was sent over a year ago). At first I was pissed she called me, she told me she never wanted to talk to me and then she calls me up when she needs something? I told her I didn't want to and she sounded pissed at me. I was pretty angry about it. After thinking about it and talking it over with my gf, I decided I'd go and try and find it. So After digging through old email, after email I found it. But not after noticing how even in those e-mails you could tell it was just a disastrous relationship. Either way, I don't care if she talks to me again, but meh, I guess I don't really want to either. She's not who she was to me anymore. Gah, either way my gf is off camping and I can't text her cause she loses service, So I'm bored out of my mind.

So pretty much everything has changed in my life. Well not everything. But I have a completely different idea of where I'm going. I'm not longer with the girl I was with. I met someone else. Shes my age this time go me. Well a few months younger. But she's amazing. She also in cali for a bit. But Like I don't know. We've been friends FOREVER well I guess since October. She makes me smile like no other. I'm actually pretty happy with the relationship. Me and my other best friend decided to get an apartment together when I go back to Washington. It'll be 3 bed rooms. I'm out of here in only 400 days. Seems like alot but the time goes fast. I fixed my credits. aand I still miss my cat. But past that everythings okay. I think I'm the happyest I've been in forever. Like I don't know. Like 4 years I guess. Oh well.