so... i'm really confused and i don't know why. I like girls.. infact i LOVE them and i know it but in the back of my mind i'm always just wondering if maybe i'm bi or what if i'm wrong?? What if i'm not a lesbian and it truly is just a phase?

so....
I don't even know how to start this entry so so.... will have to do.
I'm feeling soo many feelings, some of them good and some of them bad.
It started by going to a shock game. We won in the end which is good.

Before the cute pictures i still really need suggestions on my scholarship essay (on my previous journal) so check it out leave comments... thanks.

HELP HELP HELP! So i'm trying to win this scholarship. These are the instructions- Tell us how you’ve helped make a difference in your community or in someone’s life, in an essay of 500 words or less.

I need comments suggestions etc. I'm already over the 500 words which sucks but like if you know i can cut something out let me know.
This is a first draft

Here's my essay-

Ok so i need some dog advice for any of you who have dogs.

So... this morning i heard my mom moving around in her room, i looked at the time and it was 730 'Oh sHIT!" i thought about to get up. Then i rolled over and realized it's summer so i went back to my original position and went back to sleep.

Are there ever days where you just feel soo un gay?

My sister has taken the car over to the states with friends to shop. Which has left me and my mom at home. We only have one car so it really sucks. But i've decided to put this time to good use. Gunna right my Dante's Cove review, work on an essay i have to write to try and win a scholarship, maybe clean my room.

So i love this chick- Katie Wirsing.
Just wait till the very end it kinda gets happy and sweet.

So i'm done two exams. The first was civics and it was open book so it was rEALLY easy. the second was english but it was 20 matching and 16 multiple choice... i finishe in under 25 minutes and that included reading a ten page story.

I"M so FUCKING PISSED OFF!!!

So yesterday after last period my friend Danny came up to me and we started talking so i'm like "walk me to my locker?" so he did while we talk and it goes like this
D- Do you know an ember in gr 12?
M- Yeh (says last name).
D- Well she doesn't like you.
M- Why not?

So um i don't have time to post a full journal.
But acouple of days ago i wrote on my cousin Jen's wall and then i was talking about pics my aunt has on her and my sister added them and then we both added my other cousin and now all of us are talking and it's really rather weird..

OKay. So i went to school with my new hair cut.. 2 of my friends hated it. and other people didn't say anythin but my one friend who normally doesn't say things like at all and doesn't say things like she said to me said AWWWWW SEXXXXI!!! When she saw my hair.. it made me feel soooooo good.
So i'm looking at online courses for next year.. so in grade 12 i can have more spares..
www.ILC.org

I saw Knocked Up tonight.. it was great!!! So fucking hilarious.. i literally had to cross my legs so i didn't pee. And i took a si[ of my pop at the wrong time and started to choke.. But i loved the movie. There was lots of female nudity..mmmmmmmmmmmmmm