I've been inspired by postsecret
1. When i pee or poo.. i always close the window (if it's open) of the bathroom but i never care about closing the door.
2. I'm somewhat afraid of coming out to my dad not because he won't accept me but because i'll no longer have anything to complain about.
3. In my mind i feel like if only i was skinny my friend might love me back.

So here's my update
Grease went off amazing, the cast parties were fun, it's done and it's kind of sad but i can't wait for the next play. Pit band is fun.

In T.V shows they always show women gardening in skirts (when women are gardening). I don't know many (any) females that wear skirts while gardening. Especially nice/fancy ones like they show on t.v.
Do any of you wear skirts while gardening? (minus the males)
I'm watching Criminal Minds and they shoed a lady gardening in a nice white skirt.

Has anyone ever pad attention to how many steps 10 000 is? You know how you have to get 10 000 or so steps per day god that's alot.
I went for a walk with my dog 15 or so blocks. The vertical blocks are approxiamtely 150-200 of my steps (i counted.. i was bored) and the horizontal ones are about 300ish. I have short strides therefore it ends up being more steps- my legs are really short.

I realize that I've been busy with co-op and pit band and haven't gotten to spend lunch hours with my friends all the time like I used to but obviously the time I try and spend with them isn't good enough or they just happy the way things are. For months my friends and I have been planning on going to Hooters. It was either gunna be Heather, Mitch or Kevin driving.

I love Hallmark movies lol they are so sappy, cute, and corny. They are great. I love the commercials they play during the movie's to. All based around the cards and there just so sentimental, funny anf cute.

This one is about deaf people it's called Sweet Nothing in My Ear. It has Marlee Matlin in it. She is also in The L Word and I find her completely and utterly hott.

So the first show was tonight. It was done and over and i was home in 2 hours. There were a few problems in which people didn't get dressed fast enough, didn't put on shoes when it was critical to their lines, dindn't grab props they were suppose to etc.

The play opens tomorrow night!

So lately i havent been feeling as stressed. I think it was the initial just all the sudden im busy and going crazy out of my mindness. I still tutor 2 people one is 9 (in grade 4) - 1 time a week for 1 hour. The other is 21 (almost 22) working on getting her grade 9 math credit she never got. She has a learning disability and can't read I work with her once a week for 2 hours.

FUCK! I was writing this really long journal entry and it dissappears. FUCK!
Okay so I've decided to try and write one of those long journal entries that everyone else writes that my attention span is never long enough to read every word from.

I know I'm young and sometimes you just have to wait for things like the right person but damn it's soo fucking hard!

Last night as i said in my last journal entry i picked out a book to read and i'm finished! I read the God Box by Alex Sanchez. I think it's an amazing book. I haven't felt like this after reading a book in a long time (although Hero earlier in the month gave me a similar feeling but not as great).

I just realized that that last post was the first in a long time i could talk about a movie or a book without Jeff saying something about a book or movie i needed to review... It felt good! (No offence Jeff....) I'm just glad that i have no over due reviews or anything of the sort... although i like to review... just no so good when i take to long to do them.

So today after going to see Horton Hears a Who (which was very well done) at going grocery shopping i had to return a movie to blockbuster. While there i decided to rent a couple movies. I rented Martin Child (which is good saw it in theatres.... haven't watched it yet tonight) and Breakfast with Scot. I just finished.

I've pretty much been non-existant lately. I geuss it's mostly because although i know i am i feel as if i don't fit here. I have nothing to talk about that is related to being gay or anything such as that. And i always feel that's what i have to talk about although as shown by ruby you don't have to talk about gay things all the time.