Ok so i just wrote the below part and it make's no sense so i'm gunna sum it up for you all up here and then you can read below
Brit n Heather = X's
Brit n Me= Best friends
Heather n Me= Best Friends
I feel like brit just talks to me to feel closer to heather because i'm so much like heather.
I have a crush on Britney.
I'm no britney's type.

So i realized looking back at the majority of my journal entry's/posts (which is about 10...lol) That they are about school or my mom. I decided to tell you a little about my dad for a change.

So at my school and the area i go to school in grades 9 and 10 at least gr 9 (all) have to submit this thing for a contest. The contest is called the pluralist. I decided to post what i wrote last year. The subject last year was belonging. I couldn't think of anything back then and it wasn't perfected but i had to hand it in. It could a poem, monologue or a postcard.

I was watching tv last night with my mom like most other nights and one of the characters on the show (i forget which one) was talking about being an aunt. I started saying how sad it is that i'll never get to be an aunt because my sister doesn't want to have children. At the time i was totaly forgetting that you can also be an aunt (or uncle) from your spouse's siblings.

So today in the mail i got the book Here's What We'll Say the one i won in the contest. It definitaly put me in a good mood. I've been sick this past week or so and it's been miserable. So i definitaly needed a pick me up. I'm very excited to start reading it. I was gunna start reading it but then my mom brought me to the clinic so i couldn't.

So exams for me are officialy over which is amazingly great. I'm really excited about the upcomming semester. I have classes that i think i'll enjy. I'm also really nervous about the second semester. I can't find anyone i know in the same classes as me which isnt a good thing. Because that means I'll end up being with the snotty english girls.

So i just had my 3rd exam today it wwasn't to hard it was music. The stupid school board decided that last year we should start having exams for music. Last year it was write an essay about what you learned. This year it was stuff i had learned about 5 yrs ago and the rest of the class learned earlier in the semester. So in other words SUPER SUPER easy.

So i just rocked my history exam. I feel amazing. I love when you do an amazing job on something like a test or exam and after wards you feel just amazing. But its almost beyond amazing you feel proud and happy and excited and nervous and amazing and then you just can't wait until you get the final mark.

So I just finished my first exam of grade 10 it was german i did really well on it i think. I left feeling like a million bucks esecially since i learned right before i went into my exam i was goign in with a 98 i was so excited.

This site is seriously addicting i'm finding more and more it's one of the only sites i go on and i have to go on before i go to sleep and as soon as i wake up to check out people's posts and to comment. I love it.

I'm getting frusteratd i don't have a girlfriend and i've never had one. I know i know i'm still young hteres time but i've never had anyoen not even a single date and by now most of my friends have at least had a date or someone interested in them. I'm just gettign lonely and argh. I should be patient but it just gets frusterating once and awhile.

So I dont know how many of you out there in Oasis Land watch The L-Word (which by the way if you haven't is amazingly great) but ive been noticing it's been getting alot more press because of there newer characters one which is played by Marlee Matlin and another played by chyphill sherperd(or however you spell it i stink at names).

Last night i came so close to coming otu to my mom. I wanted to soo badly. I went downstairs and sat down on teh couch about to tell her. Then i went through the what if's in my head. I think she already knows but i'm still scared. I just don't want her to be dissapointed in me. Because i'm not going to live out the dream she had planned for me and that i had madee up through out my life.

My friend Heather and I are looking into going to camp. We live in Ontario. But there's only one GLBT camp in Canada that we can find so far and so we are looking into going to Camp Ten Trees in Seattle.