life just keeps pushing at me. my patience, my financial limits, my mental limits. the tabs for my car are gunna cost 50 bucks. plus emmissions. and i owe my parents insurance money...and i should probably do some school work some time soon. and find time to work with the swim team so they might actually HIRE me...

And all i really want to do is...take a walk with my girlfriend and wake up on her side of the bed so close to her skin that I'm not sure where she ends or I begin.

And I am at the dentist. Not in bed. At the dentist. In the waiting room. Wishing I was warm and still asleep.

I heart the academy of country music awards. Can't help it. Bliss

Bi-polar that is. I live in Washington state. Where it is currently snowing. In april. Yesterday it was sunny. Today has been rain, then snow, then hail. I can't wait for May. Mother nature has worked out her aversion to sunshine by May usually.

My little sister turns 15 in 4 days. She has the best morals out of the whole bunch of kids in my family. I'm proud of her.

From the 3rd floor of the science building, I watch the birds fly by. Going south again?

Midnight comes
all too soon,
as I sit in my room.
He pours another drink
and I can't help but think
this isn't where I'm meant to be.
I want to fall
in love,
on my knees,
head over
heels,
for an artist
that wants
nothing
more from me
than a muse.
Use me,
amuse me,
don't ever abuse me.
Take my picture,
i'm not me on film
Starry nights
strangled by city lights.
Summer comes much too slow.

So there is this website that makes haikus from your journal. Memes.angrygoats.net

Here's mine:

and nothing changes that
not the tears squelch the fears but
still leave me empty

Im up. Awake. Before 10 in the am. Something took away my sanity and made me make a doctors appointment for this morning. So now im up and showered. Go me.

It wasn't my birthday. Just a sad song. Im not old enough to be 40 years older that my mother in any picture. Maybe some day.

I've been trying to write more...something for you. The poetic voices in my head have left town.

Please leave a message after the beep.

bEEEEEEEEEEEp

Today is my Birthday
And all that I want
Is to dig through this big box of pictures in my Kitchen
Till the daylights gone
This one here is my momma
With the long brown hair
I'm 40 yrs older today than she was in that picture there
But if life stayed it was
And lovers never fell out of love
If memories didn't last so long
If nobody did nobody wrong
If we knew what we had before it was gone
If every road led back home
This would be
The very last country song
These are all my babies
Lord knows how we survived
The first one was hard and last was unplanned

let me look at you,
see how you shine.
i fall in love,
like i do everytime.
we chase the setting sun,
lighthouses by the sea,
faithfully comfort me.
see how we run,
you and me,
how two become we.
close your eyes,
listen to the wind
through the trees.
nights like these,
i feel free.

I hate drama. so with that in mind....

I LOVE OASIS, JEFF, PAT AND ANY AND ALL CHANGES THAT OASIS MIGHT GET.

Changing something doesn't take its value away.

if you threaten to leave, please back it up with actions.

I am happy with my gay little oasis family. And I mean happy not queer.

Four years ago today, my adoptive dad died. I miss him terribly.

Did i forget that life sucked on Tuesday or something?

And when was i supposed to hit that time in my life where suddenly I have friends and I go out and party and get drunk and have random fun? Because the time wasn't here in high school and it ain't here now...

Or does that only happen to happy girls? I mean, i could skip the drinking but I wouldn't mind some fun.

I moved out...again...But this time. I'm 18. So there isn't anything that they can really do. I'm staying with my fiancee and her family...I like being around her all the time...but sometimes certain things drive me crazy. But so far...it just feels like we're living together....which is nice. I love her so much...but sometimes i wonder if she is as serious as I am about us...

♥ Amy

Basics:
Name:Amy

Date of Birth:
June 11

Birthplace:
a hospital

Current Location:
The computer room at my house

Eye Color:
Blue-Green-gold

Hair Color:
Auburn

Height:
5'11"

Heritage:
I think German, Irish and Italian? And half mexican. I glow in the dark. :]

Piercings:
Yup. Ears x2, Nipples and muh belly button.

Tattoos:
5 stars on my right shoulder

There is this girl...she has hazel-green eyes. She looks at me and sometimes...the world spins just a little faster...She's not tall but she's not short...she has the most amazing curves in all the right places...sometimes she takes my breath away. Her hand is always firm in mine. Reassuring me that eventually everything will be okay...This girl...her skin is soft and her touch feather light.