I want to drink cheap wine with you on the banks of a river in a foreign country.

I want to show you why I have always wanted a large family; there is beauty in that chaos.

I want to put a ring on your left hand. Legally.

I want to travel the world and climb mountains and kayak seas.

I want to kiss the prettiest girl in the world.

For once, I want to make a plan and stick with it.

Birthday:: June 11th, 1990
Birthplace:: Oakley, Ca
Eye Color:: Green/Blue/Gold
Hair Color:: Redish Brown
Height:: 5’11
Weight:: 150 lbs
Right handed or Left handed?: righty
Your Heritage:: Mexican & Irish/German
My Worst Habit:: procrastination
Zodiac Sign:: Gemini
Shoe Size:: 9.5
Pants Size:: 13
Innie or Outie?: Innie
Parents Still Together?: Yessum

So basically...I've passed the point where I thought I was sort of falling for Jessica...It's offically offical...See look...There's the cliff and that tiny little dot that's running about in circles singing happy songs, thats me...

I forgot what it was that I wanted to say...

hmm...

I'm not pretending that my ex doesn't exist...I'm pretending that I never loved her. That we weren't as intimate as we were and that we basically never were. Because thats the only way I know how to deal with it. Or else I just won't deal and I'll go crazy.

In other news...

Mmm...Jessica...Jesus that girl is amazing.

So I hung out with Jessica after school today....

hmmm....i love the way that girl smells, tastes, touches me. She decided today that at all times one of her body parts has to be touching mine...So on the bus, we held hands and I traced circles on her legs, just because I like the faces she makes when I give her butterflies...

I like how...Last night...the moon was full, not just for me, but for everybody that I know and love, close to home and at the four corners of the earth...

I want her to want me. Thats how I like it. That how I'm used to it. But things change, and I'm alright with that...

Did you ever realize that the more you want to feel something, anything strongly, the harder it is to feel anything? And the stronger you long to feel a certain way, the weaker the feeling is...

I forget who said it on here, but "She says I am strong. But she makes me weak."

You.

Yes. You.

Tell me something amazing. The population of a tiny country that I have never heard of, or how you feel in my arms. Tell me all the things I could never guess at by looking in your eyes.

She came back to school today. I don't know how I feel about it yet. I left early. I went home after second period and slept until about 1. Which was only about a million hours too early to wake up.

You don't even know my name,
and you took what wasn't yours,
what I would not, could not willingly give.
After I take all the tests,
the only ones I'm happy to fail,
I think I'm okay.
Where I can sleep
without seeing your unknown face.
I don't even know your name.
The day after the world comes to an end,
and I've got this creature, growing inside of me.
She's more your's than mine

So apparently, my quasi-girlfriend decided to show up on here. Panic of the century much?

Welcome to the late-night version of Amy's mind...

Not that it's at all interesting or mind captivating...

After all, it's 1:30 in the morning and I'd rather be sleeping...

I have an effinity for doing things I shouldn't. I like it. I like knowing that at any moment, I could get caught. But I never do, so I keep right on rule breaking.

So there is this girl...That I really like...We'll call her Beezy, cuz thats what she calls me. I really, really, really, like this girl...

I'm sure all you Oasians are mentally shrugging going "ok?? and??"

Well...And...

I am feeling rather odd tonight...

Shadowfrosty thought I was drunk/high...Nah...I just had a really good day...I love my friends...I am so thankful for them...I don't know what I would do without them...

The girl I like...a lot...came to school high today...Which I generally dissagree with but...she gets all cuddly and I was who she wanted to cuddle, so I was alright...

Where did I go you ask? Nowhere! I have been here the entire time, just not about Oasismag...So this is the first time I've been online in weeks...I type slow now... =[ How odd.

Hmm...So what did you miss? Not a whole lot actually...

I kinda went into mourning and didn't surface for a few weeks. Some days are tough, but I'm doing so so much better...