Hey all you pretty lil Oasians. I've been lurking and watching over you all to make sure you behave yourselves. Haha. Just kidding. Though I have kind of been lurking for the past month or so.
My life has changed in a thousand ways in that month. I've got a better job, I'm quiting the old job, I'm about to move out, and my financials are more stable than ever.
I JUST GOT THE MOST AMAZING JOB OFFER IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD. AND IT IS SNOWING. HUGE STICK TO THE GROUND SNOW CLUSTERS. I LOVE SNOW!!!!!
I just realized that I haven't posted here since last month. Crazy how time passes so quickly. I've been thinking about the last few months of my life. How I managed to hook the girl of my dreams...and let's face it, fantasies, I still dont understand. She is so good to me and completes me in ways I didn't realize that I wasn't whole. I am in awe of her sweetness and ability to love. We spend every waking minute together and don't get tired of one another. Even if we get irritated, we still want the other. This is new for me.
I have the best girl in the whole world. When I come home from work cranky she wakes up to give me lovin. And that loving is amazing. I've always been a slow cummer, but she can make it happen for me in like 30 seconds flat. 30 60 90 seconds flat. :)
My girlfriend and I just fogged over the windows of my bedroom. We are amazing. Like...the condensation is starting to drip. I will accept the awRd for most epic lesbianism ever now. Id like to thank the acedemy and Ellen for inspiring this moment.
I feel like a creeper lurkin near the wifi waiting for Super Ducks' next journal entry.
In other gaynews I spent most of today with my girlfriend. Bliss. Sex, snuggles, food, snuggles, sex, nap and sleep. That was our day. We came to the conclusion that when I have a million dollars we can start procreating. Hahaha!!! I love her!
I've been spending so much time at my girl's house that I'm pretty sure her neighbors think it's just us living there. Next year!
Last night I fell asleep to her voice telling me about how our relationship got started. Of course I know all the details just as much as she does, but when we snuggle up close and she tells me sweet things... Well I couldn't be happier. I woke up to her warmth wrapped about my body like a thousand sunrises. I love her too much.
Im gonna play rugby in January!!! HAHAHA! Those lovely ladies look like they could rip me to pieces and eat me for lunch! Delicious.
For a moment, I was feeling kind of snatchy...and then I decided that it wasn't worth it. So I suppose I'll bore you, my fellow Oasians with some other minut detail of my life...
I am far too much sea and sky and salt for these walls.
I feel like I wasn't built for this world, this life.
I am distant mountains and driftwood.
I have been broken and put together;
Haphazardly again more times than I can count,
What does it feel like to be whole?
I am endless blue under golden skies,
I am as far as the eye can see,
Two halves, tied together with a promise,
As simple as interlocked hands,
I am whole, but I am restless.
I need rocky shores and salt air,
In low tide, I need my rock,
In high, I need wind whipping through my hair
And the sun on my back.
You're desperate to hold on,
But she's already gone.
Quoting the wrong words at the wrong time,
I wish you could see what I see.
Love is not a fight.
Adoration in her eyes,
I know she's steadfast.
I've got consistence from somebody
And she remembers every promise.
Holds me gentle as a baby butterfly,
I can feel her heart flutter.
I've never had much air,
But she can take my breath away,
Just by touching my hair.
I was searching in all the wrong places
Just for a trace of you.
Never lifted your fist,
You left me broken just the same.
If your "girlfriend" would stop calling and texting my girlfriend, what you call drama and is really the truth would disappear. Do you think I just make this stuff up? Will you realize that I hear first hand or about every time she calls my girlfriend, that I read every text she sends her? I would pay good money for her to leave my girlfriend alone. So you can be mad if you want and you can want to punch me. If you really find it nessacary you can punch me. But that would be like electing to ruin your life. Because I will press charges. And it could be considered domestic violence.
It seems to bother my ex a lot more than it does me when she turns up where I am. It's nice to be happy. She surrounds herself with people who were our mutual friends and uses them like armor. Ironic considering how it's more upsetting for her than it is for me. I didntthink she needed protection from a total stranger. I recognize her face, but not her actions. Obviously if she has to have people watch constantly for me, she isn't over it. Anyways. It's whatever. I'm too busy to bother being angry. I don't understand why she thinks so much happened. I left her and moved out and it was over.
I'm sure my spelling is off, but the feeling is the same!! My girlfriend gave me all of her gross germs. Half of my throat is bigger than the other. Geez. I drank sooo much water today!!!
I watched my ex run into me several times. Obviously she's not over it or else she would be able to handle seeing me. It makes me kind of sad that it's that hard for her to deal with me. Especially when "dealing with me" just means being at the same school. I dunno, maybe it would be easier for her if I was miserable. That's never gonna happen.
Today my classes start for my third year of college. Fall classes bum me out. Reminds me of way too much. The last time I took fall classes, I was still totally brainwashed by the teacher that abused me in high school. I'm not that person anymore. I don't miss being her. I don't miss him either. He is out of jail now. I'm really not looking forward to seeing my ex at our school. Her first class is taught by my advisor. I know I'll run into her. Everything that transpired between us just makes me sad these days. The girl she is seeing now is rather unsavory. Just my opinion. Oi.