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ReinbowGrl — Wed, 24 Feb 2010 06:23:31 +0300

I miss when your eyes pinned me to the wall and the your kisses left me naked. I miss the way your fingers teased their way past my insecurities. I miss the times I could focus because the words you texted to me made it clear I was needed.

I miss you. And I miss our love. I'm not sure I recognize us anymore.

So.....

ReinbowGrl — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 20:40:40 +0300

Maine might suck, but so far, Referendum 71in washington, which expands domestic partnership rights to those of a married couple...Is winning. My girlfriend and I drove about and took down all the signs that the opposition put up in our town. And my mom forcibly removed one with her truck. I was SO proud. So. Main might suck, but Washington is on the war path so to speak. :]

Today I....

ReinbowGrl — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 00:14:47 +0400

Surprised even myself by not being upset. I got fired from my job...And ya know...It's still a good day. I started working there when I was barely 16. I'm 19 now. I started to out grow and be unsatisfied with the management and it's just better that it be over. I know that my fiance is worried...But it'll work out alright. Life is an adventure and I'm glad to be on my way.

stupidstupidstupid

ReinbowGrl — Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:48:41 +0400

In aprox 2.5 hours...The people in my town, my crazy exgirlfriends inculuded, will be able to find their token lesbian...On the corner...outside the YMCA...Dressed....As a Grape Cluster. With a hat and everything. Said grape suit...is as big as my car...Any volunteers to kill me? The sad part is...I'm kinda hoping it won't fit. :]

fighting for the love of our lives...

ReinbowGrl — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 12:09:44 +0400

i think my girlfriend is falling out of love with me...

Babys...

ReinbowGrl — Mon, 21 Sep 2009 08:39:04 +0400

my oldest friends' mom sent me a facebook message saying that she is pregnant. I'm excited. She is married, but only 19 until Halloween. Crazy times.

I lick my wounds but I don't see them getting better...

ReinbowGrl — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 08:14:20 +0400

If you can look in my eyes and tell me that we'll be alright, if you promise never to leave, you just might make me believe.

Why is it that you can write me pretty words and whisper I love you in your dreams and then hurt me beyond words the next week?

I keep saying that I don't deserve this but it won't change.

You find me when I'm close to the bottom and you just dig me in deeper. Do you care that I'm home crying? I'd give anything for you, but I can't sacrifice myself.

Could this hurt be the end?

marksnarf

ReinbowGrl — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 22:28:31 +0400

i write here. on oasis. for two reasons.
i never have paper and i got tired of fishing paper chuncks out of my jeans after they'd been washed.
i don't need pity after a sad poem.
i don't need an ear willing to listen to my sorrows.
i know where to find that when needed. it's called a therapist. her name is michelle.
I'm solid and grounded in the knowledge of who I am and where I come from.
I don't need to make friends with somebody across the country.
It might not seem like it but i'm not trying to be a bitch. I'm just a little...miffed and annoyed.

beauty....

ReinbowGrl — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 13:05:09 +0400

I used to write midnight madness poems.
From the days when angst filled my soul to days when my soul was empty.
is it possible to lose your soul?
can sorrow be terminal?
Let not my tears fall unnoticed.
i long for hunger i can feel in my bones.
revelry.

I'd like to dance all night

ReinbowGrl — Sat, 15 Aug 2009 22:38:16 +0400

Yesterday I:

Heard the story of my fiance's birth from her mom.
Ate really good lasagna.
Went to a 3 story lovers package and looked at glass dildos the size of my arm. scary!
Made apple pies for my lovers' birthday.
Laughed so hard it hurt.
Had amazing mind blowing sex that i think her family could hear us. :]

iy

ReinbowGrl — Sun, 09 Aug 2009 08:42:31 +0400

i feel like my girlfriend is a stranger.

dreams

ReinbowGrl — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 22:27:19 +0400

i dreamt about him last night. his house, his babies, his wife. woke up in a cold sweat.

terrified.

confessions of a sexaholic

ReinbowGrl — Sun, 26 Jul 2009 12:26:21 +0400

my lips are cherry popsicle pucker red
we made love in your bed.
cold showers on hot skin,
nerve endings sizzle all over again.
i squeak at your mere dirty suggestion.
touch me, don't touch me.
harder, fast, more, oh god.

3 hours later and it's never enough.

Amy is...

ReinbowGrl — Sat, 25 Jul 2009 22:57:59 +0400

feeling like an incediblely big jerk. i'm worried about my fiance and if i'm pushing her into something and that i'm the reason she hurts because the reason she's so angry and wants to kill somebody is in part, due to me.

how do you know that you're doing the right thing when everything else feels wrong?

argh.

ReinbowGrl — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 05:41:31 +0400

sometimes your unrealistic dreams that jeopardize all of the important things in our life hurt me.