Damn, they were such an incredible band.
I'm not a huge fan of their latest album, but their 'Diorama' album was freakin' incredible.

I'm listening to Tuna in the Brine right now.
Just, wow.

Also, after not writing anything of any vaguely artistic value in quite a while, I wrote something, which doesn't make sense, but it does.

TODAYYY :D
Was me and T's 3 month ^_^

I was goinggg to buy her a present.
But I have no money =/
So I was going to get a box and fill it with random little things that only we would understand.
Like a dummy, and a little Matchbox Taxi thing, and a little light and well, yeah.

I wish I could wear boys clothes.

hokay :D
on saturday night, me and three friends went up to sydney to go to a RAVEEE XD (Dream Universe).
it was AMAZING.
The music was amazing.
The vibe was amazing.
The drugs were amazing (lol)

And it was hella cold but I was too busy dancing and giving people massages and hugging and dancing and dancing and dancing to worry about it :D

here's some photos since we all love photos :D

woooooooooooooo :D

I just got home from Miranda (big shopping centre about an hour away).
And nothing really profitable came from that.
But I DID find a hoodie that I liked.
Only its for 'boys'.
And they only had a guys Large.

BUT! :D

On tuesdayyyy.
I'm going to Sydney for the day :D
With two of my friends...aaaand....
T :D

Grrrr.
My iPod is frustrating me immensely.
When I try to turn it one, it comes up with this stupid sad-faced iPod logo.
ITS SAD?
I'M THE ONE MUSIC DEPRIVED.

I demand to listen to music during the day when I've got noone/nothing to talk to. It calms my nerves. Which need calming, believe me.

I havn't posted on here for a while :|

Well, Me and T are still going out.

yay for bi-polarness.
i really just want to curl up and cry myself to sleep
no apparent reason.
i just dont want to be here or anywhere at all.
it feels like everythings falling apart
but it cant be. because everythigns fine for everyone else.
nothings changed anywhere.
so its gotta be all in my head.
but if its all in my head that means i'm going crazy

OKAY :D

In my 2nd most recent journal I was having a cry about how I wasn't going to see T before next weekend.
Which would mean like 2.5 weeks of not seeing her.
BUTTT.

She changed plans so she could come and see meeeeeee!
*dances

And we went into town and walked around and lurked people and kinda had fun.
And she was being a smartass and teasing me and stuff.

So, basically to give you an idea.
I'm fifteen. With a girlfriend. Liked girls since I was about 10/11, but only really realized it when I was 13.
Insert the 1.5year question/deny/accept period, and then the last 10 or so months of "I'm here, I'm queer :D" And my friends completely accepting me.
Which totally rocked.

So effing angry right now.
Nothing I plan ever goes the way it's meant to.
I really wanted to see someone this weekend before exams on monday/rest of next week.

But theyre busy.
They were pretty much the only thing I was looking forward to this weekend.

Now I'm bored and annoyed and frustrated.
And some of me is warm and some of me is cold.
Which is annoying me even more.
Argh.

WHY THE HECK
are we getting further apart
now that we're "together"

I really, really don't get it.
Its two weeks today.
Well. Technically it was exactly two weeks at approximately 2AM this morning, since we started dating.
She asked me out. I said yes.
We were peaking on ecstasy.
Not exactly the most reliable circumstances.

I've already submitted it but I was wondering what you guy's/gals think =] ?

Rain
From clearing sun showers to raging hailstorms
Spectrum-painted skies
To a barrage of icey bullets.
And I sit.

Thunder
Dampened earth below my feet trembling
Cracks of lightning flash across the sky
Illuminating
Exposing
In one short moment
The silhouettes of the world.

Each droplet of water

Okay. So.
I've been meaning to come out to my parents, or at least my dad, for some time now.

My dad's really liberal. And he's had gay friends and he's not homophobic at all.
My mum's the opposite but I don't really want to go there.

for it to finally happen.
fuck. thank fucking god.
excuse the swearing. i'm actually in a terrible mood right now.
i just punched a hole in my bedroom wall.
yes, i have anger issues.
lets not get into that.

anyway.
wednesday was ANZAC day.
which is a public holiday for us Aussies, cause of the battle in WWI.

so, me and three of my friends went out on tuesday night.

Arghhh.

Lets getone thing settled before I/we begin.
The girl I like, T.
I really do genuinely like her... but there's also that lust thing.
But its not all lust, just for the record ><
Nor do I consider myself one of those really seedy date-raper kind of people :|
You'll understand that further on.

Okay so, yesterday I met T in town.