WELLLLL . . . .i havent been on here for ever and ever!!!! been busy and stuff . . . . gess wat . . . . last weekend, i kissed a girl!!!! well, three. we were playing spin the bottle, and there were no guys, and . . . . yay!!!!!! it was happy times

I DYED MY BANGS AND THE TOP LAYER OF MY HAIR PINK!!!!! FINALLY!!!!! YAY!!!!!!

i dyed the underside turquoise with a big fat streak of turquoise on the side with a bit of pink in it. it's hot!!!

i watched this movie, banditos, and basically it was all penelope cruz and selma hayek beating eachother up, or wet, or both!!! and once they were working out wet!!! yay!!! i recommend everyone who likes girls sees it.

yesssssssssssss!!! i invited maddie to my superbowl party and shes coming!!! and shes coming over before too to hang out. yay!!!

i realized that every single friday me and my friends go over to the same guy's house and watch him and his friends play halo. but usually maddie's there and so as long as i can sit next to her it's fine.

i went riding today . . . it was so different without val there, but it was fun to ride. i rode this little pony called magic. she was pretty good. she tried to buck me off once though . . . but i stayed on, so it wasnt bad. i miss val . . .

i'm getting pink streaks in my hair (hot!!) and braces (grrrr) and im gonna be in a band with maddie(crush)!!!!! we'll probably suck. but it'll be with her so i don't care!!!

maddie (my crush) had pigtails today!!!! it was SOOOOOOOO cute!!!! yay pigtails!!!!!

the horse that i always ride at my riding lessons, the sweetest horse ever, my favorite horse in the world DIED tiday. he fucking died!!!!

i went to a small party last nite (saturday), with just my close friends (my crush is one of my close frends) and i was looking forward to dancing with her, or at least just hanging out with her, but she wasn't there. i gess its ok. cause i was at a frends house with her watching "out cold" on friday, and im going shopping with her today (sunday)for costumes for a drama performance.

so the guy on IM who likes me (i explained in an earlier post) was gonna ask out this girl and then i'd be off the hook. but she said NO!!!! we figured we should be friends while he was going out with lauren, but now hes gonna want to be more. dammit!!!!!!

minds are interesting things. . . . i cant trust mine. . . whenenver i ask myself a question in my mind the answer i think of is the opposite of what i mean. i sound like a psychopath. . . . im not (i dont think)!

a poem about remembering

i will always remember laughter
pounding in my head
a smile on my lips
anything they said i laughed
from the joy of new friendship
remembering the happiness
and remembering the sadness
i will always remember laughter.

i will always remember discovery
finding out that i love her
accepting myself for who i am
having the time of my life

i got so wasted last night!!!!! i had 2 glasses of champagne, 2 shots of rum, and a mojito(more rum!) which doesn't sound like alot, but as i am only 5'1" and 88 pounds, it was alot. me and my friends partied till 2 am and my parents were upstairs the whole time!!! i cant believe they didnt notice how drunk we all were!!!