Somewhere To Ramble

Anonymity — Tue, 02 Jan 2007 02:59:52 +0300

Maybe this was a bad idea. I applied to a college to be with her, and now that I'm in, I feel like I made a mistake. I don't really want to go to college here, but I'm afraid if I go somewhere else, she'll leave me. Am I selling my future out for love? Or am I following my heart?

Isn't Xmas Fun??

Anonymity — Thu, 28 Dec 2006 21:17:40 +0300

Christmas was especially interesting this year. My grandparents tend to be really conservative (Extremely, actually. A little racist at times, too.). I'm the youngest on that side, and I have about ten cousins, all of which are married or seriously dating. My grandma likes to question when I'm going to get married (although I'm 18) because she thinks you should have kids while you're young.

Sister Outting

Anonymity — Sat, 16 Dec 2006 03:07:13 +0300

So, I came out to my sister in an e-mail the other night. She called me and said that she wasn't mad at all, and was sorry if she ever did anything to make her think that she wouldn't accept me. The rest of our conversation was pretty funny, actually. Apparently my mom thinks I'm gay, and I'm not even sure how to react to that. The greatest part was when she found out I had a girlfriend (she already knows her):

Fuck!!!

Anonymity — Thu, 14 Dec 2006 07:31:46 +0300

I just wrote a huge letter to my sister coming out. Fuck!!!!! I'm so fucking nervous. Goddamn shit mother fuck.

Sorry, I cuss when I'm nervous.

Year-End Reflection

Anonymity — Thu, 14 Dec 2006 06:13:30 +0300

It's not the end of the year quite yet, but I felt the need to reflect. And throughout all of its bullshit, I have to admit that it has been one of the best years of my life.

Some Good Stuff:
-Working in radio. It's a bitch, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.
-Being with Ashley for over a year. I couldn't love her more.
-Going to Japan. It want to go back so bad. It was absolutely amazing.

I Tried

Anonymity — Tue, 12 Dec 2006 06:18:23 +0300

I told myself a few weeks ago that I would tell my sister that I'm bi. She's a few years older than me, and we can usually talk about personal stuff and keep our parents out of it. I've really wanted her to know because I've wanted someone in my family to know, and to have someone to talk to. I wrote a letter but couldn't send it. We've hung out several times these past couple of weeks, but I just don't know how to get on the topic. I'm starting to realize how scary all of this is.

Holy Holy Crap

Anonymity — Sat, 09 Dec 2006 00:55:17 +0300

I got into college, IUPUI Indianapolis, to study on becoming a teacher of either English or History. I can't really write much more than that.

Well, maybe put a fuck yeah somewhere in there.

Inactivity

Anonymity — Thu, 16 Nov 2006 04:02:39 +0300

So, I normally make accounts on websites and then completely forget about them after a few days. I'm trying to change that by attempting to remain active at this site. The only problem is that I don't have much to talk about. I've been truly stressed with applying for college. Anyone who's a senior in high school or has been there/done that I'm sure can relate. I thought I'd be less stressed after I applied, but now it's worse because I have to wait for a reply. Blargh! It sucks.

Am I Awake?

Anonymity — Sat, 11 Nov 2006 11:00:32 +0300

It's 3 AM. I haven't been able to sleep. So I started to think, is there
such a thing as an emosexual? All I can think of is someone who is basically
asexual. I don't know.

And I just realized how this is a horrible first impression I'm making on
this site.