I've really been feeling out of it. Nothing feels right. I feel numb. I've been having a lot of dreams about random girls, and lately I've been thinking about Emily (the past crush, not the roommate). I've been meaning to do things (message people here on Oasis, create a list of things to take to college, make a proposition speech for a GSA...), but I just can't get myself to do it.

I haven't made a journal entry in forever, but I've just been feeling 'bleh' being sick.

For those who care (I'm not being sarcastic or anything), I'm sick. I feel like crap. So....sick. *cough* I hate being sick. Especially in the summer!!!!

Well, I have...ok...had a friend. We were really close for a long time (about 3-4 years). I was always afraid she'd end up a bad kid. She liked to get into the arguments at school with the little cliques and she even got into a "gang" fight (stupid immature kids claimed they were a gang). I was always warning her to be careful and not be stupid.

YAY! My L Word seasons 1-3 finally got here! I'm so happy ^.^

Change of subject. Yesterday I went to the library to find books. I searched under gay and lesbian in the computer catalog and all I found were outdated books from the early 90s >.< In one of the books it said, "..and we can expect the 90s to be filled with many gay issues." Yeah, very old.

Yay, I love my scanner. I couldn't sleep last night (stayed up so late I heard the birds start chirpinig), so I drew a few pics.

Hmm....look familiar? Should be for all of us...
(hint, hint: I'm not so good at drawing doors..)

GRRRR!

My mom. She's being a bitch or something!

The walmart here SUCKS. There's nothing GLBT there except for cloth sewing material that is rainbow colored, but with bunches of other colors in it like pink and light purple.

Well, you know how I ordered the L Word Threesome on Walmart.com. It was so easy! I just put money on a gift card and used it to order the L Word online! I can't wait 'til it gets here..

I know I've been posting like crazy here...and most of it is just babbling. I'm sorry.

Btw, the hairy chest on EVERY page --------->
Yeah, its kinda creepy o.0

Anyway, the title. Um...wait for it *drum rolls*

I BOUGHT THE L WORD THREESOME!!!!!
(Lol. Its actually called that because it's seasons 1-3)

The dream. The damn dream!

Do you remember Emily? She's the girl that wouldn't date me because I'm leaving for college...in August! So instead we'd make out and hold hands, but we just didn't say we were dating. Did I add she had a boyfriend? And then she told me she didn't like me as much as she thought she did. End of story.

Ack, I hate my Brother #3. He's all like, "Yay for lesbian sister!" when him and his friend wanted me to rent Girls Gone Wild. And now this.

Today he saw my laptop desktop:

He says I'm "overdoing" it with the gay thing.

BASTARD!

I found this on YouTube and it made me feel proud of who I am but also made me cry. Not sad cry, but the "I want to be able to do something and make a difference" cry.

Okay, so with everyone going gaga over beautiful cameras *cough* electricity *cough* and posting wonderful and crazy pics *cough* dykehalo *cough* I've been in the mood to take pics. So I went to Wal-Mart and finally bought batteries for my crappy camera! And I was bored so here are the results. Enjoy kiddies!

Omg, lol.

Yesterday me, my brother, his friend, and my gay friend Gary went to the rental store. We were looking at the movies, and I got Brokeback Mountain for Gary and Imagine Me & You for me. Yay for gay movies! And then my brother and his friend come up to me with cracked-up smiles on their faces.

They asked me if I'd rent Girls Gone Wild, since I'm 18 and a lesbian.

Yeah, me and Emily won't be having those fun, crazy escapades of children almost witnessing a kiss or a preacher's wife catching us making out in the bathroom at school.