she moves her body like a cyclone, makes me wanna do it all night long...

lookin to the future... — Thu, 20 Sep 2007 16:05:23 -0400

i've decided: college is the best thing that has ever happened to me.. the work might be kicking my ass (i am currently procrastinating HARDCORE) but there are just so many fucking cool things going on...

life is... unbelieveable

lookin to the future... — Wed, 19 Sep 2007 16:18:41 -0400

it's true... life is really really ridiculously unbelievebale...

i'm sitting here... listening to dave matthews... with a shitload of homework piling up and i'm not even too stressed... life is just so... chill right now i guess...

college is fucking amazing!!!

lookin to the future... — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 01:09:39 -0400

hey guys!!!

first off, if all you guys heading into your senior year want an amazing school to check out seriously look at lewis and clark college in portland oregon... this place is unbelieveable!!!!

okay.. another 100 just for the hell of it

lookin to the future... — Fri, 17 Aug 2007 00:47:58 -0400

So my first list of 100 random things got some good reviews… :)
So… since I have nothing better to do, here’s my next list.. yeah, I’m lame…

1. My cell phone is affixed to my body… it’s really a bad addiction
2. I write letters to people with no intentions of ever giving them to them… it’s just an outlet for me to tell people how I really feel

100 random things

lookin to the future... — Thu, 16 Aug 2007 14:35:06 -0400

So… I haven’t been on a looooong time and I was seriously having withdrawls… There’s lots of reasons but we can get into those later (I have some good stories) but for the time being I’m killing time until my dad comes and picks me up… so inspired by all your lists, here’s mine…

100 random things…

1. I am an emotional wreck… trust me, it’s bad

thanks for the memories...

lookin to the future... — Wed, 27 Jun 2007 01:00:47 -0400

so these are just some poems i've been working on... i'm not a poet by any means but i was just in the mood i guess...

they are all written about a really good friendhip that has gone south over the last couple weeks after i admitted feelings for her....

i feel like you do this shit
just to get
u
n
d
e
r
my skin
(it’s thin)
i’m fragile
does that make you uncomfortable?

halfway back to normal....

lookin to the future... — Mon, 25 Jun 2007 16:38:33 -0400

so umm... things are meandering their way back to normal (i think.... maybe, kinda sorta)

crashing back to reality...

lookin to the future... — Wed, 20 Jun 2007 14:01:17 -0400

so...

graduation was on saturday... had a fantastic party afterwards... everyone that means something to me was there... it was great..

trying to make sense of it all...

lookin to the future... — Sat, 16 Jun 2007 10:04:25 -0400

i graduate today... i should be excited.... i am to a certain extent i guess.... excited to get the hell out of this town, exicted to move out of this house but completely confused... feeling incredibly lonely, isolated, removed...

the last day.... the first day...

lookin to the future... — Thu, 14 Jun 2007 10:18:21 -0400

last day of high school.... i'll go in for a couple of hours maybe.... it's weird.. i have almost no attachment to my school... i'm so ready to be done with school and move on with my life...

i'm so ready for freedom!! i am so ready to be on my own.... the last three years (and esp. the last year since i've come out) have been filled with so much drama.... i'm ready to move on!!!

the worlds gayest straight girl... what a mindfuck!

lookin to the future... — Tue, 12 Jun 2007 01:33:11 -0400

so brooke, the girl i can't stop talking about lately.... well, i honestly am starting to think that she might... just might... be straight.... i so don't want that to be the truth... but god damn, she doesn't even seem to be open to reevaluating her sexuality... 18, never been with anyone, never been kissed, etc etc etc.

another night... another unfulfilled night...

lookin to the future... — Sat, 09 Jun 2007 03:55:55 -0400

another night with brooke and alyssa.... god i love those two....

i'm starting to really get dangerous with brooke... i'm flirting WAY too much i think... and my hands.... they can't seem to stay away from her body.... dear lord... any contact with her and my brain, everything goes to shit.... someone help me....

dear lord... will the drama stop?

lookin to the future... — Fri, 08 Jun 2007 01:34:03 -0400

so... less than a week of high school left... thank god... i don't know how much more of it i could have taken....

update... i am still head over heels for brooke unfortunately.... god damn... i just wish i could find a girl who wasn't such a fucking closet case... i honestly don't think she will ever come around and even if she did... let's not forget....

it reaches 80 and everyone feels the need to take off their clothes...

lookin to the future... — Fri, 01 Jun 2007 02:44:27 -0400

today was a good day... no a great day actually....

it was about 80.... absolutely gorgeous... and when you live in seattle that's a miracle.... it gets above about 70 and people start flipping out.... it's really funny.. everyone busts out the shorts and tank tops at 70... :)

just give it up and let me do you already

lookin to the future... — Sun, 27 May 2007 10:21:58 -0400

i have never been so frustrated in my life.... brooke, the girl that i have a HUGE thing for, is the most god damned frustrating girl i've ever ever meet.... dear lord....