It's been a long while since I've posted on here and I've been procrastinating... I just need to get something down and on the record.
Hey guys, I typed this as a journal entry but did a word edit and changed names so it wouldn't be to revealing. I wanted to share it with ya'll. Hope to hear from ya.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008, 3:22 PM
Monday, July 07, 2008, 9:09 PM
Gosh I feel kind of let down again. I don’t know why. I’ve had a good day; I think I’m just bored.
My dad died. It was a shock, he had a motorcycle accident. He hit a deer driving to work in the early morning.
I'm fine, it's been about a week now but its still hard to believe ya know?
Well everyone I must say, even if I’ve said it before, that this is turning out to be one of the best summers I’ve had in a long time. I’ve been spending so much time with Good friend 1 and Good friend 2 that it’s almost unbelievable. I mean, the only reason it’s not unbelievable is because it’s actually happened.
Well everyone here’s what my therapist said: He said, basically, that I should lower the status of my good friend because my good friend doesn’t value me as much as I value him. He said that because I value him more than he values me there’s an unbalance in our friendship.
Things are good, I just spent the majortiy of the night, till midnight at least, with my good friend. We seem to be getting along really well even after we spent the majority of the week together. He called me today and asked me to come over, so I did.
I've spent way more than half of my week with my good friend. The place he lives currently has no water supply because of the storms we've been having, so he's been staying at my place for most of the week, since last Sunday anyway.
Well things are still going good. I did something again with my good friend on Sunday night and almost all day on Monday, until 5:30 anyways. Then I went to another one of my good friends and was there until midnight watching a movie ( and then Jay Leno) with him and his family, playing video games and talking. I had a great Sunday night, and Monday.
Well let me say this right now: I’m a worrier. If none of you reading this right now know that then you need to know, because all of my last entry was full of worrying.
I feel like utter crap. The feeling I’m feeling is totally worthless in itself. I feel down because its sinking in real deep, the understanding that I am obviously not as important to him as he is to me.
Well yesterday was the best day of my week so far. I made a trip to another town and went shopping, got a 27 inch TV from a used store that works fine. I’m a little concerned that it will break though because it appears that after it’s been off for a long while and I turn it on it makes cracking/snapping noises. It’s weird; I hope it doesn’t break soon if it does.
I don't know exactly what all to say, because there's so much to say, and even so I don't know if I really want to take the time to say it all. If I did it might bother me more than it should.
I went to my good friends house yesterday. Me, him, and his cousin went on a romp through a creek nearby. We played on my computer, just myspace, facebook, and some ebaumsworld.
Well everyone things are going fine. Everything that doesn’t revolve around my accounting class right now anyway which unfortunately is not a lot of things. In fact I should probably be reading my accounting book right now.