I love gay men! I really do!! They're awesome! I love all gay people, myself included, haha...but gay men are so cool. Some are feminine, some aren't. My best friend's family is friends with lots of gay people. Eric kicks butt. He's very feminine. He always looks nice, and it's adorable because he does what some (only some and it doesn't seem to be too many) gay men do...where they talk and let their wrist hang limp.

Gah.... I had a dream just a few minutes ago...and I have no idea who this girl was, but we kissed. And all I know is that it felt so god damn good. This sucks... :(

I have yet to experience my first kiss.

I have no doubts at all that I like girls. I've fallen in love with one. I love everything about them. But I'm getting confused because of the way I crush on them...it's not like with boys. With boys I'll go really ga-ga. Feel sick, happy, excited, embarassed, all that stuff. But with girls, I just think they're plain hot. I'll want them really bad, and crush on them majorly, but it doesn't feel the same as when I crush on guys.

I'd like to play all the other FF games. X-2 is the first one I've ever even looked at. I've never really been interested in it before. But, I decided to buy it and try it out and I fell in love with it. Especially the opening scene. I love that song!!!

BTW: Anyone who's played X-2...do you have to wait until chapter 2 to catch chocobos?

Haven't gotten comments from anyone lately. :(

I bought FF 10-2 today. And the really nice official strategy guide. I came home and played for four hours straight. Talk about brain rot... I feel groggy now, for some reason. So...there goes my whole first paycheck, and some of my next one. Ah, the joy of being a teenager.

So my skin is peeling, finally. Because of my sunburn. But it's coming off like glue. In those big patches, you know? Sorry to gross you all out. It's so gross...but it looks just like glue, too. Weird...

I'm just curious...lately I've read a lot of posts about how people think they should be out. Being out to your family and friends is one thing, but being out at work is another. I think it's great that people want to stop hiding and everything, but technically they aren't hiding. Why not just go about your day, being who you are? It's not really necessary to tell everyone you're gay, is it? If they ask, tell them what you want.

Well, I emailed EJ. I told her that I just wanted to apologize for fighting with her when we broke up; I had promised that I would be there for her and I would at least try to understand if she ever needed to tell me anything or if she wanted to break up. I really do feel bad about that whole incident. She emailed back saying "it's okay, it's all good now." But I really feel bad, and it isn't okay. I should have kept my word, and I really regret what I did. Hopefully we can still be friends.

Does anybody have any tips on how to take care of sunburns? I went to Six Flags with my Dad, his gf, and my little sister yesterday and I have the WORST sun burn. I've got it on my face a little bit, a small part on my chest and back, but my arms are so sore that I only got a couple of hours of sleep last night. I couldn't get comfortable; anty way I layed down my arms burned. If anyone can te

Woot! I got my paycheck today. I bought Karaoke Revolution. Yay!

Damn Grassroots. The police will be towing soo many people tomorrow. Again. Last year they had to tow like 30 cars in one day...everyone takes the stupid no parking signs out of the ground and throws them into the woods. There are already about 5 cars parked right in my front yard. GRR. I HATE Grassroots with a PASSION.

I spose I'll add my coming out story to the ones other people have posted. It's not that interesting...

I knew my Mom would be completely fine with my sexuality. I had taken almost a year I think to gather up the courage to tell her, though. When I did, I wrote her a letter/note telling her. I sat next to her on her bed, crying and crying, while she read it. True to my beliefs, she didn't mind one bit. She gave me hugs and reassured me that my fears were not reality: I was scared that I wouldn't be the daughter she wanted, or that she would think I was a freak, or she would love me less. Now, even though I'm still trying to get more comfortable with it, I can talk to her about it openly, and she will have conversations with me about it like it's every day life. Which it is. I feel very lucky that my Mom is laid back and is fine with my s.o. I think I just said this a few minutes ago in a comment I made on someone's journal, but it really does bother me that so many people aren't accepted in their families because of their sexuality. I wish there was something I could do or say to at least help them feel better.

I missed the bus after school today. Amanda's mom gave me a ride home. Just before I got out of the car, Amanda asked me for my number. I gave her my home number and my cell number. She gave me her number the other day. She knows I like girls. She and I get along really well. Hmmmm. *smacks forehead* Not thinking these things....I'm not thinking these things!!!

Happy happy happy! I got to talk to Ian for a long time last night. We talked about the whole issue with how I feel and got everything sorted out. He is the best friend anyone could ever ask for! I love him to death. Not to mention, I'm in love with him. But then I asked him out. He said he needs some time to think about it. I feel a lot better getting everything off my chest and out in the open. And he and I are as good friends as ever.

I feel stupid...maybe I should've just left Ian alone, not mentioned any of this...I just want to curl up and die. Ummm....yeah...

Well, this isn't such a surprise, but Dad blew us off. Betsy and I made plans to go over to his house for a nice dinner tonight. So I called to ask what time he was going to pick us up tonight and he said he and Marie are going to dinner with friends. WTF? I dont understand why he always puts his family last. His kids, that is. What, we aren't important to him? Next he'll tell us that we're not going to 6 Flags on Friday because he has a phone conference with people from work. Grrrr he makes me SO mad sometimes!!! And he still wants that paper from Mom so that he can save about 15,000 dollars. What will she get out of it? Absolutely nothing.

I feel sick..... Here's Ian's email back to me:

.....um well. I am so sorry for having to put you through this crap
again. ::hides in a corner::
i am speechless and to confused to say anything at the moment... and
please... dont hold regrets on the past about us.. I'll always love you
no matter what. Even if weve fought or argued and or just plain confused
about you or I. Dont hold back on anything youve ever wanted. Just