You know how when you have a "cousin" who isn't really related to you but your parents were good friends when you were little?

I'm writing a book about a gay situation i'm in. (this was originally an email to a friend so it may have some personal stuff in it that I didn't find at first.)

NOOO! I'M GAY!!!!

I couldn't believe it. I wouldn't believe it. I was gay. My first sign was that suddenly, my friend Isaac started looking better than ever. I would feel a jump in my heart when he said hi. I was so scared. I mean, I was very homophobic at the time and I thought I would grow out of it. well, it has been a year and I still havn't gotten out of it.

The love I lost was a heterosexual relationship between me and a girl I knew from my church. the relationship was steady, not a sexual one, but I really thought I loved her. She was beautiful in my eyes, And sometimes I still look at her and think "why did I lose her?" But I remember now... there was something missing...

As David fought Goliath he had no supporters, Goliath was huge, David was only a boy. And yet he killled Goliath with a single stone. The Lord was with him. Many of US are good christians, but we too are the minority of the world. We are up against homophobia and Ignorance, A dominant fighter.

"Oh Friends;I've been hiding this for far too long;
Oh friends; If I knew the answer I wouldn't be singin' this song... I'm different from all of you; I may have said I loved you; but that was all a lie; to myself and you; please don't start to cry... It's okay... I have friends here..."

It may seem kinda corny, but that is how I felt when I wrote this.

well, I just found out I was bisexual. I recently told two of my friends. one I told myself. the other I told in an E-mail. She hasn't answered yet. As a guy, It seems like I have less to lose telling a girl.

Just posted a new blog entry. If you want to check it out, here's the link:

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.ListAll&friendID=13365...

CAUTION: Contains sadness and self-pity. Read at your own risk.

Now I'm going to go try and finish Chapter Seven.

Hugs amigos.

"After all, tomorrow is another day." - Scarlett O'Hara

Hey guys!

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Hi Everyone!