today was... confusing.

i got up to go to john's all star team baseball game, and L comes :]]

i'm reminiscing again.

the title is a very complicated way of saying how much i hate J at the moment.

i don't get it.

i'm not good at titling these things.
but anyway, these past few days have been so confusing.

first, my friend i shall call L texts and asks me to go to the movies. i ask her who else is going and she says, just you and me. i kind of over think everything. she told me a couple months ago that she might be gay. so,

my first entry!!!

Randon Notes on Being a Writer - #42

Genius never strikes at convenient times. Be prepared to lose sleep, be late for appointments and drop all the things you're supposed to be doing when those AHA moments hit (and leave enough time, because the AHA is usually followed by several hours of mad typing or scribbling).

Hi Guys!

I got this email today and thought I'd share it, and my response, with all of you. I blanked out the sender's email address as a kindness to him/her. I guess I must be doing something right if I'm getting hate mail from religious fanatics, huh?

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From: XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

I chose my new publicity photo. What do you think? Not too goofy I hope.

Hey everyone,

My editor flipped over the OQ trailer and instructed me to get busy and do one for Scion's Blood ASAP. Well, here it is:

Hey guys!

Check out the trailer I did for Orphan's Quest!

I think I might come out to my dad. yep, i know, that might not turn out well. but it might work well also. he isn't religous. he told me a while ago he supported gays. so it may work out. Any advice from past experiance?

A death of a soul
What does it mean,
leaves such a hole,
brown not green,

Lying simulations,
Dying for Manipulation.

Why did it happen to me,
Why can't I be set free?

Manipulation,
smoke and mirrors,
your generation,
lives in tears.

nothing can save us now.
We will die for this foolish man.
He went farther than God could allow.
with his...
Manipulations...

It's alone...
it's dying...
it's pathetic...
though it's trying...

A caged spirit...
locked away...
you can't hear it...
but that's okay...

is it a demon?
Is it an angel?
is it human?
is it animal?

It is different...
so they caged it...
it's indifferent...
time has aged it...

A caged spirit...
locked away...
you can't hear it...
but that's okay...

why is it here?