I've fallen in love with Tom of Finland. Lads, chech him out, he's a very dirty bit of gay history.

Hehe....My crush and me are going out now. Rachael is my best friend and now she's my girlfriend, too. But she's dating Josh and Daniel, too. Daniel knows about me, but Josh doesn't know about either of us. Lol...

I wrote James a letter. I really regret breaking up with him back at Christmas. :( I think I fell in love with him over then, but didn't realize it. But he's going out with Stacy, my ex-best friend.

I need a man. I need someone to be romantically involved with. At school everyday I see these guys that I think are gay/bi and I wish that they would just come out of the freaking closet. Then I remind myself that I, too, am in the closet. I want to come out to my school so badly, but I don't know how long I'll be able to carry the burden of being the only "out" person there. I was giving blood at my school's biannual blood drive and I sat next to a friend whom I see rarely anymore and she asks if there are any girls in my life. I wanted to tell her that I was gay because I knew she would be okay with it, but I was worrying about everyone around me freaking out, or worse yet, the nurses ripping the IV out of my arm and accusing me of having AIDS.

Such a perfect day today, blue sky nice cool air. Not bad at all. Except...

I took alot of films more like 2 or 3 films in Florida vacation. Guess what? It came back doubled up. Supposely my parent said it was new and never used. I used it, then it came out photo onto another photo. I was really really upset and expected it to be perfect photos. So now all you can see is another photo ontop another photo. Theres a family in the bg, then theres Florida ontop , kinda blurred together. URG. Just perfect! Not. So its wasted. Saddly enough, it ended me being upset over it. Oh well.

MA is much too cold. We have around 5 feet of snow right now, it's insane, I could get lost in a snowbank! I don't want to be lost in a snowbank, it would be cold, a lonely... and I think I'd end up dead...

Never Never Land is where my head is. And Mary Poppins is an annoying, pretentious, perfectionist bitch. I