So my plan for today was to not text Alex.
Well i failed that. Lol. I couldnt help it. She's all i thought about this morning. So I sent her a message. She actually replied this time. But not exactly what I wanted to hear/read. What can i do though, right?
Actually, I dont even know what I was expecting her to say. Maybe somewhere along the lines of "I miss you" or something stupid.
I dunno.
But I am getting impatient. I hate being ignored. So friggin much.
And she keeps doing it. I dont know how much more I can take before I tell her it's over.
I'm trying my hardest to not have to resort to that. Because then, just like in a good chunk of my past relationships, I'd just be giving up and running away from my problems.
I want to at least be able to say that I honestly tried, but she wouldnt cooperate. At least.
I'd love to be able to come out of this and say "I tried, and succeeded. I fixed my relationship because I didnt give up."
I don't know what the chances of that are though.
I wish I did. Cause then this wouldnt be so hard or confusing.