I haven't been on in a while purely because nothing interesting has happened to me. Exams are over though, so that's awesome, and there's now two months of holiday ahead for me to waste on the internet :)

But yesterday was a very very good day.

A friend had a barbecue, with lots of drinking, and we all slept outside because it was ridiculously warm.

Over the course of the evening, I got (moderately) drunk, and Holly kissed me. We stayed kissing for aages and GAAARGH. Yay. Anyway, I got a bit repetitive, and kept telling a friend over and over that I was really really worried that she'd regret it in the morning, which apparently Holly found hilariously funny because she hadn't been drinking at all.

NOT AT ALL, people!

We didn't really speak about it at all this morning though, so I might have screwed things up, and I hugged her goodbye along with everyone else. I'm an awkward person in general, least of all when I'm in an awkward, slightly ambiguous situation!

EEEEE. Anyway, as I was walking home I got a text from her saying that she was "unsure where we're at", but that she didn't regret it, which made me do a little dance of joy in the middle of the street.

The only thing now is, where are we at? Although it's nice, this all feels like crappy timing, because she's leaving for Switzerland for a month and a half tomorrow, will be back for two days, then off to Thailand until late September. After that, if all goes well, we'll both be off to uni. For like, the year.

It feels like just as things start to go my way she has to bugger off somewhere, so I really don't know how to respond to the situation. Is it even worth starting anything?

Blaaaaagh. It's not like I love her or anything, yesterday was cool in itself.