I hate ..
Kids at school
Because no one cares about me . Everyone who seemed to just floated away . I am not an attractive person and that really gets in the way of how I interact with others . My mother is a total snob and is two faced and I can do nothing about it because God likes to test ppl to see them fail , then say "On to the next." Everyone seems to have a love life with sum one who embraces them and amires them but notwith me . I am too skinny , too ugly , too dark , too lame . I havent had a new pair of shoes since 6 months ago . I cant find a job to support me for what i need and desire to increase my confidence level . So ill be going to highschool this year with the same thing ive had on since last year . I didnt ask God to put me on this earth . It is such a heavy burden to be placed somewhere u werent asked to and have to kiss someones ass just to be happy eternally . All my so called friends only talk to me when no ones around and treat me like some dirt bag when otherd are around . Family never calls . I could be dead in this basement and the only reason someone would find out is from coming down here to perster and nag at me . Selling my soul to the devil didnt work out ,and as soon as you forget to pray a few times , God is no where around anymore until u offer to kiss his invisible ass . I literally will be down here in this basement and loitering around this house the whole summer because theres no place 4 me in this world . "ugh , your annoying , Id never hang around sumone like you , Fagget , I dnt even like being in the same room as you , Whod win in a fight , Nick or Michael , Micheal !!!!!!!!!!!" Now im going to have to go to sum school i knw nothing abt . Julian , Where ppl would still bother me , underestimate me , and test me , in the works of jesus christ "our lord and savior."
I Wish ..
I could have the wardrobe many have , the friends who actually cared , a nonseasonal family , a nice support group . ppl who acually admired me . That I was attractive . Results in what I need and want .