I can't believe it's been almost two weeks since I last wrote on here, but everything's okay. I had the surprise of going to my maternal grandparent's vacation house with my Dad and his boyfriend, and Austin and Matthew along with my cousin Jake. Male bonding at it's best!!!!!!!! Two weeks away from the internet...how did I manage?

It was great to get away, but the only downer was the amount of time I had on my hands to just sit there and think, for me that means analyzing the shit out of everything.

That time away was good for me, and it gave Matthew and I time to just be together (I KNOW you understand what THAT means!) but it also let him and Austin get to know each other better. It's been weird for him accepting me as gay I think, not because it's something new (if you've read my earlier journals you'll understand that) but I think because we're...how can I say this...

Just really typical guys.

For some reason that concept and being gay are not best friends?

My cousin Jake now knows I'm gay, and while he's cool with that, and still lets me hug him anytime I want (he's a hugger!) he only knows the stereotypes attached to gays, which to me is like expecting (fill in the race of your choice) to be just what the stereotypes portray and not be one bit different from that.

It's 2012...why are we still living in the past?

Jake and Austin have asked Matthew and I some real uncomfortable questions, but I'd rather have the ask those questions now than to continue believing something that isn't always so true.

As a gay person I've already tasted the rejection my own kind can offer so easily, so now I feel like it's my personal mission to try to show the world that being gay doesn't mean being so different.

Maybe I can't take on the world, but I can take it's people on one at a time.

I need to get some sleep now.

Thanks for being here for me : )

Sam : ))

P.S. Grandpa's doing fine, taking things one day at a time!