It's been over a week since I last wrote on here, but so much has happened and so many doors I thought would never be cracked are now wide open.
My Grandpa is in remission with his sickness.
My Dad moved back to the United States and lives within a hour of me, and I came out to him.
He already knew. I'll write more about this soon, I promise.
I think most of you who have read my journals know that I'm deeply religious but I haven't really written about that much.
I guess it's time to.
I've decided for personal reasons not to reveal my exact religion, but I don't think that matters much. Believing that a greater power than you exists out there is comforting to me, and as I wrote before I talk to God everyday. Atheists will call this a waste of time, but that's their choice. I think by asking the tough questions it's let me find the answers in my own way.
My Grandma told me that my acceptance of my Grandpa back into my life started a chain reaction that reunited me with my Mom, which in turn led to my Dad returning to the United States. Having his dying wish of his family back together empowered his immune system to fight his illness with all its might and now he's in remission.
I didn't want to say this before, but my first reaction to letting Grandpa back in my life was a NO in capital letters, but something told me to do it...actually a force stronger than me made me say yes...
My faith spoke to me loud and clear.
I listened, acted on it, and like the old saying, reaped the harvest tenfold.
I thank God for that.
I also thank all of you.
As much as my faith guides me, you guide me as well. You understand me like most people can't, and I am grateful for that.
By giving I have gained so much more than I could have ever hope for, and in the future I hope that I can be a positive force within the gay community.
Sam : ))