I was planning on writing a journal this weekend but I was too depressed and I was contemplating suicide so I didn't. Now I feel better so why not write today.

In english class we're watching a documentary and it's really interesting because of the aerial shots, unusual angles it was shot in, and the jubilant music that was played. School is alright, it's difficult to wake up every morning because I am so tired. I'm tired of nothing, but I know it's something because nothing is something. I keep screwing up in my classes and I don't give a shit. My friends are going to the grammy museum for a field trip in u.s. history class and I can't go because I have an "F" letter grade. Plus it's the friday before my birthday (april 20, my birthday is april 21). I might not go to school that day.

Now I'm going to start a photography club at my school because it's like a new pilot school and it's fucking boring and no one is going to start one so I might as well. My mother always said I'd be a leader, but it was up to me if I wanted to be one like Hitler or FDR.