At some point in time it started feeling like i didn't belong in my own life, how the fuck do you explain that one? its like your in the wrong place and its always the wrong time, like a bad dream. oh well it wont last forever its just gonna feel like it :/ plus all this crazy shit with my ex(broken up for 6 months after 3 years together), he said he loved me after we had sex last week, i still have feelings for him but im not sure if i should :( am i doing something wrong? is it my fault that im in this situation?......yeah just about >.< anyways the only reason im posting this is because i have no to really talk to anymore and i live kinda far from town so its a challenge to get out without a car.... or phone :| so this is prob the only healthy way for me to get shit off my chest so if your actually reading this,

i am sorry so here is music video

http://youtu.be/4FbPRHntLho