My general mood tends to come in phases. For the past 3/4 months, I've been peculiarly happy despite a number of things which really haven't been too great.
Today I felt what can only be described as a sinking feeling? It's a physical ache in my chest. So here marks the start of my depressive journals, because I feel like absolute shit.
I have no idea why, but this is just how it goes. I haven't left the house in three days, I've eaten way too much out of sheer boredom and now my neck feels weird because that's where all my fat goes.
I seem to have crawled back in the closet again, though for the life of me I can't remember how or when. It wasn't something that bothered me when I was all happy and stuff, but now having to talk about the various merits of Orlando Bloom every time I talk to friends just seems like an excess lot of bollocks that I alsolutely dont have to be
One of my friends is seriously annoying me because she's being so fucking judgemental around me, like I can barely say anything without her announcing that she hates it and giving me an extensive list of reasons why. She's the only one online during the day though, so I have to put up with her crappy whining.
You know where I want to be? Uni. And it frustrates me way more to know that I have to wait ages and sit exams in between now and then.
The upside is that I know the feeling will pass because it always does, it just sucks while I'm having it.
I'm supposed to be writing my English coursework over the Easter holidays. I thought I really liked the essay title I chose, but it's way to broad and I have no idea where to start.
Like in the set of poems we have, 'entrapment', has
- marriage & women
- the class system
With the word count I have (2000-2500), any one of those could be an essay title, which is really stressing me out, because how am I supposed to get detail when the question is so unbelievably vague?!