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My general mood tends to come in phases. For the past 3/4 months, I've been peculiarly happy despite a number of things which really haven't been too great.
Today I felt what can only be described as a sinking feeling? It's a physical ache in my chest. So here marks the start of my depressive journals, because I feel like absolute shit.
I have no idea why, but this is just how it goes. I haven't left the house in three days, I've eaten way too much out of sheer boredom and now my neck feels weird because that's where all my fat goes.
I seem to have crawled back in the closet again, though for the life of me I can't remember how or when. It wasn't something that bothered me when I was all happy and stuff, but now having to talk about the various merits of Orlando Bloom every time I talk to friends just seems like an excess lot of bollocks that I alsolutely dont have to be
One of my friends is seriously annoying me because she's being so fucking judgemental around me, like I can barely say anything without her announcing that she hates it and giving me an extensive list of reasons why. She's the only one online during the day though, so I have to put up with her crappy whining.
You know where I want to be? Uni. And it frustrates me way more to know that I have to wait ages and sit exams in between now and then.
PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
The upside is that I know the feeling will pass because it always does, it just sucks while I'm having it.
I'm supposed to be writing my English coursework over the Easter holidays. I thought I really liked the essay title I chose, but it's way to broad and I have no idea where to start.
Like in the set of poems we have, 'entrapment', has
- marriage & women
- religion
- the class system
- consumerism
With the word count I have (2000-2500), any one of those could be an essay title, which is really stressing me out, because how am I supposed to get detail when the question is so unbelievably vague?!
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Feelings of utter shit come,
Feelings of utter shit come, as you said, in phases. It will go away soon I'm sure. Just as long as you don't mope too much. Maybe get out some instead of sitting around. Cuz when you sit around you just kinda marinate in your depression and it makes it worse.
Ah. I have friends like that. Some people just enjoy criticizing. Have you tried telling her to cool it with the bitchiness?
Haha, I'm trying not to
Haha, I'm trying not to mope. Some other friends have come back from holiday now, so there are more people to talk to and stuff.
And arrgh, trust me, this girl does not take a hint! There are people who are just like that, I guess.
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“Why do you sit there looking like an envelope without any address on it?”
Oh yes, that feeling...
Haa yes, waiting for college is very very frustrating.
Yes, sinking feelings do come in phases, and I've still not found a way to get out of those phases quickly. I guess it does suck that you have no one else to talk to except someone who always bitches, but if it were me I would avoid her even if it meant not talking to anyone.
About the Orlando Bloom bit, well, he is rather awesome.
I dunno about you, but listening to music (not the annoyingly peppy kind, but just normal good music) has helped me a lot in getting on with life.
Nooo! Legolas is the worst
Nooo! Legolas is the worst member of the fellowship (excepting maybe Boromir), and the worst pirate on the Black Pearl definitely goes to Will Turner. I guess I've got nothing against Orlando Bloom per se...
And thanks, listening to music has helped a bit :)
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Worst member?? He took out
Worst member?? He took out an entire mumark filled with enemies!! And in fulls style. He's the shizzle.