I'm kind of in zombie mode right now, just kinda moving around and hoping for my mood to improve. Today it got really bad after school. I kinda cried a little because I felt alone and then I crawled into bed and forced myself to sleep so I could shut my overwhelmed brain off. I think I'm fine right now, I just really haven't been in such a funk for quite awhile. This too shall pass, I suppose.
I had a really cute dream about Brittany. I was back in P.E with her and we were sitting on the floor next to each other. We were talking and I think I asked her if I could put my head in her lap and lay down. Or maybe I just did it without asking, I can't remember. But I did it. I put my head in her lap and she started stroking my hair and telling me about what's been going on in her life, and I clung to every word. It was incredible. I thought it was real too. My subconscious enjoys teasing me.
I'm looking for a new job. My bosses don't give the teenagers hardly any hours, even though all of us are more than willing to work. They're giving our hours to the adults, which is complete bullshit. I'm not even on the schedule for this week. I'm making no money and they treat us all horribly. We work our hardest but we get no rewards, except for a shitty paycheck. And one of my bosses was fired recently for "inappropriate conduct in the workplace," which probably means something sexual. So yeah. I'm on the verge of unemployment. I'll keep my current job until I find something else, but I'm getting desperate.
My best friend was acting odd today. I walked with her to the locker room before my lunch hour, and she didn't want me to leave. At all. She was hugging me, holding my hands, talking to me in a way that suggests we're, y'know, dating. She even said something along the lines of, "C'mon! You'll get to watch me undress!" So we got weird stares from all the girls who were in the locker room, and I'm pretty sure they think we're dating.
Still feeling a bit alone, but hey, what can you do? I'll get over it. I have a project due tomorrow for AP English that I haven't even started yet, so I should probably get on that. See ya.