Now that break is over...

funnyflyby's picture

... is this site going to become more active? I mean, I know it's not the last day for everyone, but it's definitely nearing its close. I have returned, and I keep intending to participate, but I seem to be not saying much. Perhaps it's that I'm out of the habit, or that Oasis is just a bit inactive now. MacAvity is back now, so that should help keep me awake, or at least saying 'I agree', but I don't know. I should make myself comment twice a day or something, just so that I'm participating.

On another note, Shneer and I just walked around downtown for about four hours doing nothing but having a conversation. That's a quality I appreciate- being interesting to talk to endlessly, not having to be doing anything in particular to have a good time. Shneer's not in any of my classes this year, and we've both been very busy, and so haven't been able to see each other much... it was nice to just hang around together for awhile.

I just feel so empty. Shallow, almost. I'm not particularly happy, not particularly depressed, just kind of... meh. And while I have feelings, they don't seem to go very deep. It's bothering me, but all in all it's not a bad way to live. Better than pain. So I'm just reading used textbooks I found and not doing anything.
Last year the Oasians all seemed to have had terrible New Years. This year, nobody seems to be reporting anything in particular (with the exception of MacAvity and sort of Lonewolf). I just don't know. I wish I was more opinionated now; everything seems to be so neutral. It's an uncomfortably peaceful thing.

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RainbowTime's picture

im on all the time

ive got too much free time i actually feel a bit annoyed today i found myself walking in my living room throwing & catching a tennis ball cause i was the only one in the house

i only drink irn bru and the occassional blood of my enemies

MacAvity's picture

Responding in reverse order....

That shallow emptiness is kind of how I started off last year - for me it was like, 'I should be heartbroken because Dunno died, but instead I just feel... okay.' Before too long that neutral meh-ness became neutral contentment - comfortably peaceful. Liking most everything, not caring especially strongly about anything, that's kind of been my ground state all year. It's pleasant, if not entirely satisfying.

I miss having a friend who would just spend hours in conversation, even if I don't particularly miss the individual himself. You're lucky to have Shneer; he sounds like a great guy.

Please keep participating here. I love reading what you have to say.