So I took a test this past Friday in my Spanish class and received the test (with a score) yesterday.

We had a few short answer/essays to do and for one of them, it was asking us to talk about our childhood imagination and stuff (it seems random, I know, but that included a ton of our vocabulary from the chapter we had just finished).

And I'm lucky that she didn't take points off for this (its a conversation class, so she said the first test she'd be nicer about it, but we do need to know grammar). But anyway, even if she *did* take points off, I'm pretty sure I'd still find it absolutely hilarious, as I do now.

I was looking over that one essay about childhood and I hadn't realized this when writing (it wasn't conscious or a decision at all and I didn't know I even did this), but I made some funny grammar mistakes.
As you may or may not know (not trying to patronize anyone, but just in case of a language barrier, I'll explain)...Spanish is a language with gendered words. And when explaining something about yourself, you say it differently as a man than you do as a woman.

Example: (English)--I am tired. (Spanish, feminine)--Estoy cansada. (Spanish, masculine)--Estoy cansado.
And (English)--When I was a little kid... (Spanish, feminine--When I was a little girl)--Cuando era una niña... (Spanish, masculine--When I was a little boy)--Cuando era un niño...

So I was looking back at the childhood essay and noticed that I wrote the first half as a girl, I mean, referring to myself as a girl "When I was a young girl, my imagination was huge..." (example). And the second half was referring to myself as a boy "When I was a young boy, I was really shy."

Its funny how it worked out...that every gendered word about myself in the first half was feminine and in the second half was masculine. My teacher circled it and changed my -o to an -a (so it would match my assumed gender---female). :D This made me grin.

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Another note: I know I wrote a very short (I think?) journal on here about most likely being a sociology major. So today I had asked to speak to the professor of my sociology class, just to get a feel for things and talk through it with her. Not like the requirements needed to be a sociology major, but rather, what it *means* to be a sociology major and such. I wanted to talk to her because I've already met her and she's my prof. I didn't want to go to the head of the sociology department (I don't know him and I've never met him before).

So she and I met. And that was awesome. So, for those who are just catching up or some such thing, its a Sociology of Gender course I'm taking. So today I talked alot with my professor about trans* issues, movies, rules of healthcare, hormones and surgery (very basics), and even the more problematic stuff (transphobia). It was great because she's all about throwing the gender binary out the window. And I was telling her some stuff about me, but only a little.

I don't want to pour everything out at once. That's a lot to handle. So I told her a little about myself and that was nice. I'm hoping to talk with her one-on-one again soon. She's really nice and I like knowing that I'm out to her. I don't know if I'm out to her as genderqueer or transgender, though. Not sure about that. But no matter what, I've told her about questioning my gender and stuff. I almost want to cry because of how pure it feels to be able to admit to some of this stuff out loud.

So I'm hoping to mention some stuff, but I don't know what to mention and how.

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I ended up emailing my rabbi and I'm going to call his secretary to make an appointment to speak with him. Its great because its confidential and stuff.

~~Eli.