The Truth Leaks (perhaps)

7 December, 2011 - 5:16am — socialist

First, I love the song "Machine Gun" by Noisia. It is absolutely sick:

Also, I've been thinking for a while that people might be onto my sexual (well, more romantic than sexual, stupid society >_<) oritentation. I've mentioned this before, but I should bring it up as an actual title-worthy topic in my journal. So here it is:

·In my 4th period class, somebody randomly said to me "Hey, cutie." He then said something to me in a strange lisp later. I didn't really think this meant anything, but I told somebody online about this, and he said that he is definitely making fun of me.
·One person said that he heard that I'm gay. He sits at the same lunch table as a friend who I've come out to. Suspicion.
One guy's been trying to bully me (not that it's working; I don't pay attention to it), but I don't know if it's related to my sexual orientation.

I don't want sex and I never have wanted sex. (Not that I have no sexual attraction; I definitely do, but my virginity just doesn't bother me and I have no desire to be rid of it.) This is something that I've mentioned many times on Oasis Journals. This is because it worries me. Thought I don't have a problem with being a virgin forever, I feel like everybody else does. My parents stress that I should have children, facts like the average age at which gays lose their virginity annoy (and continue to frighten) me, etc. I wish there were some way of making myself want sex.

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Comments

7 December, 2011 - 5:33am — jacjessen90

ok...whoa! hold on a minute!

first of all, the average age at which gays have sex is for a group in general, and most of the sites you can get the stitistics at are about 5 years off, erring on the side of youth.
2ndly i don't give a damn what the average age is, and neither should you....
3rdly, i am almost 22 and still a virgin, as well, as proud to be one. i will give up my virginaty only when i settle into a ltr that lasts longer than a month and a half (that whole 3rd date rule never seemed to make sense to me).
sorry to ramble but this struck a cord with me.
~"to live a day alone, only THAT would be torture! An hour without you, only THAT would be death!" ~gomez and morticia addams
~"look at him! i would kill for him! i would die for him! either way what bliss!"~gomez addams

7 December, 2011 - 7:29am — MacAvity

Agreed.

If you don't want sex, don't do it. Ever, if you never want it. Just that it's what most people do shouldn't affect your personal choices.

But Jessen, I don't understand - sorry, but didn't you say you had been engaged? Surely that must have been for longer than a month and a half?

7 December, 2011 - 4:38pm — Dracofangxxx

I was thinking the same thing about Jessen!

Now I'm really confused... :P
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That's redick!

17 December, 2011 - 10:27pm — jacjessen90

no, actually....it was 36 days to be exact...

he "proposed" during a midnight discussion, and what i mean by that is this: we were talking about how each of us wanted kids, wanted not to be a single parent when we got said kids, and *jokingly* whether our respective familys would miss us if we were to pack up and get married in iowa or vegas or some thing, since we both were so happy at that point in the relationship....( or @ Least i was...he dumped me 4 days later) and at that point i asked "whoa...did you just ask to marry me?" and he's said "yeah, i guess i did...well, do you? you make me happy and well...do you?" so, i said yes...cuz im a hopeless romantic that will always be a fool for love...
~"i'm a real Witch, Before, During AND After my coffee!"

7 December, 2011 - 1:20pm — elph

No sex... no problem...

for now!

But... you surely cannot deny ogling that one certain lusciously appealing boy (e.g., Brad... just maybe?)... that one with whom you can envisage holding hands, engage in a loving mutual embrace at the slightest provocation, share hesitant kisses to the cheeks (lips later... then, maybe, tongue), long walks in nature, discussions that seem to never end...

If you've come this far... thoughts of sexual delights cannot be far removed! Multiple solutions exist! :)

7 December, 2011 - 10:59pm — socialist

I've noticed that people

I've noticed that people only choose one part of my journal to comment on. Strange. Also, I just heard my mother say that a bisexual man is the same as a gay man. She's also said that all lesbians are bisexual. She's weird. I think she's bisexual but doesn't know it.

7 December, 2011 - 11:54pm — elph

That "one part" is...

one on which you'd prefer no comment?

But... very interesting comments from your mom... and your suspicion about her sexuality! Seriously?

Your mom could be right... but just some of the time! Weird? That's your call.

All parts adequately covered? :)

8 December, 2011 - 12:38am — socialist

I did appreciate comments about the asexuality part,

but it would be better if the comments covered the entire journal. I've been putting off the second part for too long and I would like some opinion on it.