Headache pumping and voices getting to me, louder, louder each time. The belly ache stinging, pinching at my insides.
I feel like saying "namaste" might express something that I'm not but I am. Nah, I don't think you get it.
-- (1) My social anxiety has been leading me to staying in the same spot for a while at a time, resisiting going outside.
-- (2) I'm having issues that no one knows about and I can't share them because no one would get it. No one would be able to help.
-- (3) I want it to be January 6 or something right now.
-- (4) My best friend is a guy.
-- (5) I'm really annoyed with my best friend but I cannot bear to tell him. Because of the way he handles things. Sometimes I can't stand it.
-- (6) I want to push away from him. I want him to feel bad for the shit that's happened between us. He doesn't. I want him to understand how much he's been hurting me, fucking up this relationship. I don't think he does. I don't see myself telling him because I don't want a confrontation to go on. I want him to realize this on his own.
-- (7) I'm lashing out right now.
-- (8) I told my mom about the bump/bruise on my head