Expressing My Disgust

21 December, 2011 - 4:33am — centerfielder08

I am sick of being made fun of here. This is supposed to be a supportive place....a place where glbtqqia (etc) feel *safe* and welcome. I don't feel either on this site...neither safe nor welcome.

I'm putting this out here to express my disgust with how I've been treated.

Please note, there is a difference between making a joke and making fun. The line has been crossed. Its not funny. It hurts.

Where do you draw the line of poking fun and cyberbullying? You tell me...is this repeated shit that has been thrown at me, that's *just* merely poking fun? I don't think so.

Thanks for that.

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21 December, 2011 - 5:11am — Yamamoto

Am I the one that has been

Am I the one that has been doing this :(... Or is this someone else... If if it is me becuase I am not really sure what the person is doing then I will apologize in advance for doing somthing to make you feel bad :(

21 December, 2011 - 6:26am — Dracofangxxx

Prettttty sure it's me

To be fair, you could call any joke offensive and call it "Cyberbullying". Sometimes you're just too damn sensitive.

Anyways, anyways. If you really have a problem with me, stop hiding behind journals and actually talk to me about it. All you ever do is run away from me and my beliefs instead of trying to find ocmmon, middle ground. It's not like I'm some asshole. I'm a living, breathing person. I wake up in the morning, eat breakfast, go to school and be happy, get home and get miserable. I get treated poorly by my family. I get treated great by the people who love me. I'm nice. I'm mean. I can be strong, and I can be weak.

But if you choose to sit there and mark me as an oppressor, a bad, evil villain, then you're learning nothing. To solve problems, you don't give up. You fight. And that's what I've always tried to tell you. And every time you run away, come back, switch meds because "you're not happy". Rinse. Repeat.

I am not evil. I'm frankly quite nice. But if you make yourself out to be some terrible victim all the time, I lose all respect for you- no matter who you are. You allow yourself to be a victim... Not everyone is always going to fight your battles for you in life. Maybe on the internet, but not in real life.

To be happy, you have to be a fighter. I think you should learn this. Giving up is letting yourself be miserable and die. I know you're stronger than that, if you'd stop hiding behind your victim complex. I have faith that you're better than that.
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That's redick!

21 December, 2011 - 6:54am — Dracofangxxx

also,

How are you supposed to feel safe and welcome if marking your improvement and happiness "Triggers" you? What the fuck do you expect any sensible human to say?

I mean you don't seem like you'd feel "Safe" ANYWHERE with the way you act and the restrictions you put on those around you.... so yeah?
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That's redick!

21 December, 2011 - 7:04am — centerfielder08

Why do you make assumptions?

Why do you make assumptions? How do you *know* I'm "playing" victim? Because I know I'm not, so I'd like to hear how you "know" that I am????

I do have places where I am safe. Yes, placeS ....plural.

I hate how many people think I'm fucking faking.

I just wrote a longass comment and then Internet got messed up and its deleted.

21 December, 2011 - 8:03am — Dracofangxxx

Oh, I don't believe you're "faking".

You can't exactly fake pain. I'm saying you're not doing anything about it. You're sitting around going, "Boohoo look at me I took my meds at this certain time and that's all I'm saying look at how mysterious and troubled I am", and then when you actually make me proud and write about the good parts of your life, you go "oh! But I really am miserable and if you say otherwise, I'm going to be TRIGGGGGERREEED!"....

What, exactly, does that TRIGGER in you? Because to me, physical abuse triggers me because I've been beaten. I see it, I throw up. But that doesn't mean I can't share a good joke about domestic violence or anything... I don't give anything but the worst power over me.

Because you know, to be strong, you can't just have problems. That does not a strong person make. To be strong, you have to laugh them in the face and not let your problems BECOME you. I try so hard to sympathise with you. I do! But you know what? You don't tell us anything about you, dear.

You don't. All you say all day long is how bad you feel, and what pills you're taking to fix it. I don't know anything about you because you've let your pain become who you are... And that's letting it win. That's not faking. I don't think you're faking your pain.
I just think you don't honestly know that you can fix it on your own.

And I have tried to help you so much in the past, and all you did was ignore me, or spit in my face. Honestly, your attitude towards people is acidic. To be quite honest, I wasn't trying to mock you in the last journal. I really honestly though you'd LAUGH. Imitation is flattery at it's most simple level!

But you didn't find it funny, so I'm obviously a cyberbully, right?

Anyways... I had a point to talk about but I've lost it since I just burned myself again. ouch.
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That's redick!

21 December, 2011 - 8:43am — centerfielder08

Fine. You win.

21 December, 2011 - 8:53pm — radiosilence95

Uh...

That little conversation between you and Shelby wasn't a win/lose thing. She's made some valid points...she's just a bit in-your-face about it. But really, she is trying to help you. Trust me when I say that Shelby is all about tough (really, really, really tough) love.

I mean, we can't really keep telling you what you want to hear, leaving generic comments like "Oh, I'm so sorry, I hope you feel better! Hugs!" And if telling you we see improvement is somehow a "trigger," then what else is there left to say?

So yeah. That is all. Carry on.

21 December, 2011 - 9:58pm — swimmerguy

Yeah

Honest satire does not cyberbullying make.

Don't feel like we're ganging up on you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xt5ghXdq6Z0&safe_search=on

21 December, 2011 - 11:12pm — Dracofangxxx

Thanks guys :'3 <3

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That's redick!