Christmas sucked

27 December, 2011 - 8:35am — Mogul

Well my mom took me to Cali and I got depressed on Dic. 22 and thought a LOT of killing myself, but I cant kill myself in my grandma's house.

Today it was suposed that I was going to my grandpa's farm and leave my dad in the airport, but my sister got sick and my mom decided to stay home and go to a stupid mall to watch clothes while I stayed (i dont know if its written like that) home, bored, watching tv. Then I got more depressed and thats all.

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28 December, 2011 - 1:41am — radiosilence95

I'm sorry your Christmas was

I'm sorry your Christmas was so depressing. Have these suicidal thoughts been happening a lot lately, or is this the first time you've considered suicide?

Surely you're smart enough to know that suicide is the coward's way out, and definitely NOT the solution to any problem. If you're really depressed more often than you should be, you may want to get some help :|

29 December, 2011 - 6:54am — Mogul

Actually my suicide thoughts

Actually my suicide thoughts started in 2009 and since then I have a lot of truble trying not to kill myself and about getting help might be difficult because my mom always t
says that those moods are my teenage hormones and she dosent know about my suicide plans.

28 December, 2011 - 2:36am — stillgotlegs

My slightly sick sense of

My slightly sick sense of humour told me to say that if its any consolation, you spelled 'stayed' correctly. Enough of that.

People look to suicide as a form of relief from whatever pain they're feeling. The sad thing is that they don't get to feel that sense of relief.

I'd definately second the "you may want to get some help". These aren't the kind of things that magically go away overnight - speaking from experience.

31 December, 2011 - 5:42am — pomegranate

Hey there,

You are beautiful. Don't harm yourself in any way. Even if it's hard to get help because of your mom, you could call a hotline:
http://suicidehotlines.com/national.html

and for lgbt youth:

http://www.thetrevorproject.org/Programs

31 December, 2011 - 7:34am — Mogul

Thanks!!! :) And one of

Thanks!!! :)
And one of those suicide hotlines once avoided me from taking a lot of pills.