Just watched Pink Floyd The Wall today, for the first time.
If you don't know, basically it's about this guy named Pink who's like a rock star, and it has very little dialogue, most of the movie is told through the cinematics and music, it tells of how Pink's father died in I think it was WW2, and then lived with his overprotective mother, and then he went to a terrible boarding school, and then grew up and became a rock star and other shit happened.
Anyway, the movie's full of metaphors, the biggest one of course being the Wall, which stands for self-induced alienation, and how he gets stuck on the other side of the wall and can't connect to anyone.

Anyway, I felt like I identified with that a little too much. I mean, Pink spends a lot of the movie just sitting with his eyes unfocused in front of some shitty TV, he seems to have millions of them, playing some odd program on it that you don't really know what it is. Like he just sits there and thinks for most of the movie, in various places and positions, and doesn't talk to anyone, usually with a bottle in hand.
And during break, that's really what I'm kinda like, just sitting there doing nothing, with no one to talk to. I mean, our house is big, it's so easy to just get up in my room and sit here and then no one ever comes up, I just sit here holed up.
And so while I'm not nearly quite as fucked up as Pink was, yet, because I can still connect to people, I think, it feels like, I dunno.

About the bottle in hand part, I realized, in a little thought experiment, what if I had absolutely nothing to drink until further notice?
I think I could do it, but the thought gives me a little bit of despair, which is bad. The point I start connecting to drinking is not a good place.
I'm so fucking pathetic.

Uh, but yeah, not much happening. Still procrastinating the fuck out of homework. Oh well. Going to swimming every day at 7 AM, even tomorrow, Christmas Eve.

Uh, yeah, kinda not a whole lot to say. I need to go to bed if I'm to be able to get up tomorrow, so g'night guys, perhaps I'll be on tomorrow :P