I dunno I came across some awesome videos and wanna talk about it since I feel really crappy today.

Boyfriend came over yesterday and most of it was pretty great, but I'll talk about that last.

Okay! So first I have a youtube video in english for you.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66K65z5lxlk&feature=g-u

So this guy talks about how the part of your brain that uses swears is based mainly in emotions, and I think that's awesome. Truly. Because they're words, and yet they're filed in a completely different part of your brain!

Why? What function would this have, evolutionary-wise?

You're out there in the fields, little loincloth around your balls, and a snake bites you. You scream FUCKKKKKKK. I GOT BIT BY A FUCKING SNAKE AND IT FUCKING HURTS FUCK.

And of course everyone in the immediate ten mile vicinity hears FUCK and turns their head. Why?

I think it has something to do with the fact we give the word power as a slur/swear, and the fact that's it's seldom used (Well, at least it's supposed to be). Combined with the guttural tone of it "F-uhhh-kkkk", it's easy to pick up and hear. I suppose words like this evolved in our language, not only as "weapons" to show other people you mean business, but frankly just a verbal cue to ANYONE aroud that you're either hurt, or you're angry. Because as you know, if you run up to someone in the hallway and go SHELBY, YOU SKANKY FUCK, errone is gonna turn their heads and look, right?

*coughCHADcough*

However, as he said, slurs and swears are different. Now, slurs are specific to someone or something and people often find these more offensive than swears because they "attack" someone else.

Personally, I think that's really silly. You're judging a word on it's offensiveness, when that word was BUILT to be offensive? "Don't say cunt, it's offensive". NO SHIT SHERLOCK. Did you think I was calling you pretty when I called you a cunt?
Anyways, I don't call people cunts, this is all just fictional.

I have NO problems with words unless they're used to attack. If you're joking around, and not trying to hurt anyone, why do you care? I think that's just so silly. Inversely, non-swear word attacks aren't good either, you know?

Okay okay on to my next subject... femaleb slurs. Whore, slut, cunt, pussy, bitch.

Whore is slang for prostitute, and slut is someone who makes it obvious they want to bang you, but is not immediately a prostitute. They don't have sex out of necessity for money, they have it because they just like to sleep around.

So you can be both a slut and a whore!
Now I find this is funny that they're all mostly female-centric names, but I don't find it highly offensive or anything. I think it's crappy but not terrible, WORLD CHANGING OFFENSIVENESS BAWW.

However, there are mostly male-centric swears too!

Some are minor but I love them all so~
Cock, dick, faggot, bastard, and (mostly) asshole

Now you might be like, why is bastard on there? Well, to be a bastard is to be the illegitimate son of, ergo, a bitch. Funny, huh? You illegitimate son! Your mom made a mistake so you're obviously terrible too!

Wait huh?

I always liked the word bastard. Basstarrrrd. It's so like, ringy, and fun! But the meaning is really silly, if you think about it. It's not even a slur to you, it's a slur to your mom! Ohh! First yo' momma joke ever.

Anyways.

Ohh, I'm running out of steam to finish this journal so I'm gonna try to sum this up quickly.
I like how most of the "offensive" names for men are about penises, and what you do with your penis. Greatness.

Oh man excuse me for this derailment but I'm watching cupcake wars and like there's this team that's two gay guys and they're getting married in November and oh my god it's so cute.

Anyways, back on track, I have a cool video to show you from a foreigner's point of view on American swears.

And let me tell you, this video sure is pickled!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wAkX1giNels

I think this is so great.

Umm okay since there's cupcakes on, I suppose that'll conclude my swear journal and I'll talk about yesterday!

So the blueboyboyfriend came over yesterday~
and for like the first hour and a half, I was playing Skyrim and he fell asleep, and so I was playing and I got sleepy too, so I laid down and cuddled up and I felt his hand reach under the blankets and he grabbed my hand and wouldn't let go XP

So we fell asleep together holding hands :]

He snores really cute XP

So when I started waking up, I rolled over, and he grabbed me around the waist and was cuddling me and it was just so cute X3 when he's sleepy, he's just the snuggliest little thing :]

So then he was letting me play Skyrim, and he was teaching me how to make armour, and he was just laying on me and it was awesome :]

So uh then we made cupcakes :] hot chocolate cupcakes with cream cheese frosting. I haven't had one yet, but they SEEM like they taste good, so I hope they are XD

And then we played Kirby Crystal Shards, and he was awesome and beat all the parts I got stuck on and yeah :] <3 we didn't do much, but it was really fun and comfy :] <3 and he kept telling me I smelled good and that I was so beautiful and :'3 awwwehhh

But I got upset about stuff and I ruined everything :C I just feel like sometimes he takes me for granted, and even though he was being super sweet to me when I was upset, I just like snapped at him. Stupid! I'm so stupid :C I mean my point is valid but I don't have to be a jerk about it.

Sometimes I really upset myself about how I act when I'm stressed out, you know? I don't want to act like mother. I don't want to blow everything out of proportion. Even when everything is working amazingly my brain gets upset about the dumbest things. It's definitely a big struggle I've been working on for the last three or four years. I've improved but there's a long way to go.

Anyways, I love my bubbie, and he loves me, so I suppose we realize what we have to deal with, being with the other person. I love him through his shortcomings and well, he's stuck with me through mine (even if he's left, he's came back and improved) so I have a little faith that everything will eventually work itself out as we get older, more mature, and smarter.

I can't speak for him, exactly, but it seems like he's the happiest and most in love with me that he's ever been. And I'm really, really thrilled at how he's improved and matured. Things are good. Unfortunately, I'm the poor one at the minute :P Need to fix that.

wow and just as I finished, he has texted me :]

Anyways I love all you guys and I'll try to keep writing journals, but I rarely have the energy lately. I dunno what's up.

<3