If you're trying to be all deep and ambiguous and mysterious, it's not really working. Either tell us what's on your mind or don't.
I know you don't want everyone to see the journals, but it's a waste to make an empty journal. I know what you're doing is supposed to be an artistic thing, but it's lost on all of us.
i deleted the journal (and associated comment) but Uncertain has stated that he still does journal but delets them and leaves them empty, and isn't down for our psycho-analysis.
If you aren't prepared for your journals to be critiqued, why even write them online at all?
If what you guys are saying is all true, then great, please stop commenting.
I am not tying to be deep or artistic, you guys are actually like a pack of know-it-all vultures. There is a function that allows you to hide what you write, so I write it and hide it, like a private journal. Yes no one else can read them, that is the point of an online private journal. Yes I could write it somewhere else, but that's the same as writing it here, which I have for years since I was thirteen, so I just want the continuity. I can't believe I even have to do this much explaining.
Also, for those projecting the image that I'm doing this for attention, I would disable comments if I could. Paradoxically you guys are the only ones giving me such attention, so that could easily be fixed.
I'm sick of justifying what I write or don't write, and I have no idea how to say this without it being misinterpreted (again) but I would genuinely appreciate if people stopped commenting on my future journals. Thank you.
what makes me sad... really... sincerely: Years ago, you deleted some (not all, thankfully) of your very first journals... written in an earlier lifetime.
I can only guess... but did you possibly feel that you may have appeared a bit too naked in those now-deleted journals?
The shells remain, but the "meat" long gone. :(
If only for your own memories... I hope you had the foresight to retain personal copies.
And this is really so you understand, because you can't seem to.
If you don't tell people about your function that hides what you write, then it seems like you're just leaving empty journals, and that's annoying. Maybe we shouldn't give it as much attention as we did, but if you're writing empty journals, that's obviously a cry for attention.
You could have saved a lot of pissed off on my part if you'd just told us about that earlier, and I still don't understand why you didn't.
First you seemed to defend that you like don't have to explain it, and all the explanations you gave took more time than just saying "guys I'm using an html function to hide what I write", and then I'd be perfectly content to ignore you.
Now I am, and I will, but I'm still pissed off because I don't understand why you needed to act like we were and are being dicks. It's perfectly understandable if we don't know about that function, and that changes everything, and so to act all tortured artist on us without actually explaining what you're doing, it makes no sense, unless you want to be able to complain about being hounded.
Whatever, I don't really care anymore, but I am still royally pissed off.
First I'm pathetic, and now I'm a know-it-all vulture. Uh...okay? Whatever.
I can't believe you're throwing this much of a tantrum over people telling you to not insult yourself. You realize we'd leave you alone if you didn't baww like this right?
Seriously... I used to really like you, and now you're just getting butthurt. You used to be like Jeff 2. Now you're just like all the other complainy internet people who expect everyone to send them rainbows when they're sad.
If you can't face your problems as interpreted by other people, I'm sorry, you're just allowing yourself to be hurt. Grow some balls, man up, and take the comments in stride. Nobody here was trying to hurt you until you got so melodramatic. You're not a victim. You were making yourself a victim by saying you're stupid and ugly, and are continuing to do so instead of just listening to us and posting journals as normal.
Just stop it. You're stronger than that, I know you are. Stop allowing yourself to be so weak. You can't control your emotions, no, but if you keep reacting so poorly you'll never get anywhere and you'll be miserable forever.
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