This wasn't my day. I woke up late. I was waiting at the bus stop and the bus never arrived. I have this friend from kinder garden that drives to school everyday, she is already in the university and her school is close to mine so she gave me a ride.
When i got to school i was really happy. I had a good weekend and i've been so busy lately. I spent the first two hours of the schedule talking to my best friend. Her name is Alex, she has always been next to me. Obviously she knows the whole story and we were both thinking about Wolfie and Jessie. We were like: How was the date? Did he talk to her?
My classmate wanted to talk to me. I already knew what she was gonna say so i tried to act like i didn't know anything. She said: Jessie says that you like Wolfie. I started to laugh, and i told her she was lying. He is just a good friend, i said. I couldn't let her know my feelings, she is cool but she's Jessie's friend and she is a little bit odd. She said thanks and she left. I got worried, my "secret" wasn't a secret anymore.
When we had "lunch time" i saw him and i followed him. He was with his friends and i was like: What the fuck am i doing right here? But i didn't really want to leave. When he's with his friends, he's like sooooo cold. He's like a stone. He doesn't treat me right, i actually think he gets tired of me but when i try to give him some space, he's the one that's over me. I told him: I really hate you when you are with your friends. He just laughed. Each one of his friends were leaving, when the last one was gonna leave the place, he was gonna do the same thing but i said: Stay here. He was like: "Lunch time" is over. The thing is that it wasn't, he was just looking for a pretext but he did not leave and we started to talk about us. As usually he was evading my questions and my thoughts.
I could get anything from that talk, i actually think he got mad at me. Maybe i'm just putting a lot of pressure on him and he can't handle it.
Lunch Time finished. He left, he was saying things that didn't make any sense.
I have to admit it. I got really sad because i thought he wasn't gonna talk to me the whole day, and guess what? HE DIDN'T. When i went to his classroom (I have to move to his classroom when i have math class) he did not say a word. I found a chair just behind him, it was the only one left so i had to take it. The teacher wasn't doing anything, everyone was talking so i said: Can i borrow your notebook? He didn't turn around, he gave it to me without even saying yes. I said: Thank you so much. I gave it back to him just immediately and he didn't turn around just like the last time. I'm known for being kind of proud, but i guess i'm not. If i make mistakes, i like to admit what i did wrong and then if i have to, i apologize but after i do it once, i WON'T do it anymore. So, i was like: Now you won't talk to me? Okay, fine. He didn't say anything, he didn't turn around either, it was just like i said that to the wind. I didn't talk to him the rest of the class, but 10 or 15 minutes before we were going home i started to write the journal for that day, obviously i was writing in english but he DOESN'T KNOW ANYTHING about english, he can barely speak spanish correctly, and i when i write something i like to read it, so i can comprehend better what i'm writing and he was like: What are you saying?