So, today.

Uh, had a headache all day, not too much fun, I say. Had a terrible neck crick too, damn tits that hurt.

Then, afterward. It was mostly my fault. Today was the first day of practice for school swimming. The practice started at 2:15, with a talking bit for about 15 or 20 minutes then the swimming. I had a doctor's appointment at 2:40, to figure out why I've been so tired and morose recently. So I figured I'd just not bring swim stuff, go to the talking portion, then have my mom pick me up so we could go to the doctor's afterward.
But, I realize now, I forgot to tell her I was going to the swim practice at all, she thought I was taking the bus home, and so she cancelled the appointment at like 2:30 after I failed to show up at home.
So I called her at like 2:35 to ask her when she was showing up to take me to swimming, I thought she'd have been there by then, and she didn't know.
So she yelled at me and cussed me out, I was like okay, I know. It's my fault, all my fault. I mean, I should have communicated better. Still, I don't understand why you didn't like phone me or something before just cancelling my appointment, assuming I didn't want to go to it. I assure you, if I decided not to go to my appointment, I would have let you know. But it's still my fault
Because it was my fault, and I was fucking pissed off about it, that I've both missed my appointment and gotten off on the wrong foot with the coach on the first fucking day. (I had him last year, I'm a sophomore this year. He's a very one-dimensional guy, just swimming swimming swimming, if you're sick, he wonders why you're being a wimp, why aren't you swimming? So a great coach, but hard to deal with in missing swimming. Ever.)
So in other words, a pointless thing making my life harder than it needs to be.
And then on top of that she's yelling at me over and over again like I'm acting like it's her fault or something, I don't understand, it's my fault, I said that...

So, shittiness.

I'm also not quite as sure about the cute Asian guy in English anymore. I mean, I think he's gay, I have what seems pretty compelling evidence, but this has happened before, I'm not sure how many times, with I dunno how many guys.
We had a test today in English, so I didn't really get to talk to him, but yeah...
Fuck.
Anyway, we'll see how that goes.

Oh, and fucking finally for the first time I watched 2 girls 1 cup today. I've heard a lot about it for years, and I've looked for it before but I couldn't find it for some reason, it was all trolls, and people with stupid motherfucking reaction videos (I don't give jack shit about your reaction to this video, especially when you purport it to be the actual video, which is what I wanna see).
So I finally searched for it again and found it with hardly any trouble, and man, it wasn't nearly as bad as I thought.
I mean, I'd have a hard time doing that myself, it's pretty gross shit, literally, but people have reaction videos of people puking and screaming. It really ain't that bad.

Seriously, I thought 1 guy 1 jar: http://disgustingmedia.com/videos/5/one-man-one-jar
and 2 guys 1 horse:
http://disgustingmedia.com/videos/6/2-guys,-1-horse
were worse, but what do I know?

Anyway, disgusting videos over, very briefly, just look at this, it's quite humorous, from Accelerated Christian Education, from their high school course:
"Although apartheid appears to allow the unfair treatment of blacks, the system has worked well in South Africa .... Although white businessmen and developers are guilty of some unfair treatment of blacks, they turned South Africa into a modern industrialized nation, which the poor, uneducated blacks couldn't have accomplished in several more decades. If more blacks were suddenly given control of the nation, its economy and business, as Mandela wished, they could have destroyed what they have waited and worked so hard for."
Yeah, wouldn't want those weird dark-skinned foreign people mucking things up by doing something crazy like, say, trying to run their own country or something.

I wouldn't be surprised if most black people reacted like this:

Oh, something cool I've noticed, posting daily journals, there've been points when my journals have been 5 of the past 15 most recent journals. I'm glad to see things appear to have picked up again...

Anyway, all hope has slipped away yet again. We'll hope I've gathered up some in time for tomorrows daily journal, to make it a little happier than this one. Although that might not be likely, I'm already so fucking tired, and now I have school swimming, which is likely to kick my fucking ass.
So yeah, not looking forward to that, frankly. We'll hope that I'm just misremembering the fun level and work level of last year's season, which as I remember was a lot of fun but also a shit-ton of work, more than I can probably handle now...
Anyway, going off on digressions seems to be my specialty. G'night Oasies.

*EDIT* Hold on this is just too delicious. Looking at political positions of Mike Huckabee, and apparently he said this "Huckabee said that legalizing same-sex marriage would "be like saying, well, there are a lot of people who like to use drugs so let's go ahead and accommodate those who want to use drugs. There are some people who believe in incest, so we should accommodate them. There are people who believe in polygamy, should we accommodate them?"" Drugs and polygamy I think it's pretty obvious those should be legal, incest, well, I'm more supportive of gay incest, because with straight incest, if you're brother/sister you can have babies, and that's bad, that causes genetic issues, but I'm only reluctant for practical reasons, he seems to think that morality isn't based on maximizing benefits, minimizing harms, which is the only moral philosophy I can accept, the others are just fucking annoyingly principled things, like I believe responsibility is the only moral philosophy. If a patient wants to die, even though there's no conceivable benefit to keeping them around, and tons of deficits for everyone, we have some odd fucking responsibility to do it
it just makes no sense.
Whatever, Huckabee.