Hm. Yes. Well then. Yesterday I received my very first paycheck. But I filled out my tax information wrong and they deducted a bit too much out of my paycheck for taxes. Damn it. Why did nobody explain the tax thingy to me? The wording was impossible to understand. No big deal though. I'm opening a checking account tomorrow after school, and I'm gonna get a debit card. I hope I don't go crazy with the spending. I've always been able to save money, but I've never had more than 200 bucks at a time before. Must exercise self-control. And Christmas is coming anyway, so it's not like it's necessary for me to go out and buy a bunch of shit.

They're also cutting everyone's hours at my job because we're not as busy now. Which is positively wonderful. I don't work at all this week. It niiiice.

The boy who has a crush on me has given up on me, I think. This is another bit of good news. He hasn't been pestering me with texts lately. But I had a really weird dream about this guy I dated for two weeks my freshman year. It was icky and I woke up relieved that I'm gay. That boy was a total scumbag. Not sure where that dream came from. I think it was because my friend was texting me about him, saying he was flirting with her, and that brought up some unwanted memories.

I've finished reading The Color Purple by Alice Walker. It was quite a read. Messed up, but very hopeful. Now I've moved on to Steinbeck's The Grapes of Wrath. I thought it would bore me, but I'm enjoying it. The Dust Bowl and the Great Depression are fascinating events in history.

A brief, random rant: I hate high school dating. It took one of my friends from me. Now I don't know her anymore. She invested all of her energy and time into a relationship with this overdramatic whiny pathetic douchebag, and now I never see her anymore. She's more stressed, she's closed herself off from all of her friends. I don't get it. There's never a healthy balance when it comes to teenage dating. It's like that person HAS to become your entire world. No time for friends, just your boyfriend.

Speaking of hopeless teen romance: newspaper girl. Yes, I know I was going to stop talking about her. Sorry. I pointed her out to my best friend today, and she knows her. Apparently newspaper girl went to church with my best friend when they were younger and they would sorta talk. We gushed to each other about how beautiful NG is. My friend is pretty sure that NG is bisexual.

Do you have any idea how happy that makes me?!

I almost fainted when I heard this, but I told her to check and be sure. She's gonna gather a shit ton of information about NG for me. She knows people that are really close to NG. Is this stalkerish? I don't think so. I just wanna know a few things about the girl. So far I only know random things about her, like she loves babies and her favorite Mexican dish is beans with goat cheese. I also know that she enjoys thrift stores and listens to Anthrax (definitely my kind of girl).

She said good morning to me once, and I couldn't stop smiling the whole day, because she said it so sweetly and used my name and everything. Today she accidentally ran into me in the hall. I was too flustered to even apologize. I'm an idiot.

I would pay anything to know what she thinks of me.