Ok, so first, what I just did.
Well, background, I came out to many people in 8th grade, my entire close friends circle, at least.
But, when I got into high school, I made a lot of new friends, and I lacked the courage to come out to them outright, considering especially most of them were guys.
And so, I've slowly become more and more open about it, but I'm pretty sure not everyone's getting the message. And I was getting sick of it...
So, long story short, tonight, soccer party, fun shit, anyway, in the bathroom, with one of my close friends and one of my kinda acquaintances, and the acquaintance guy said, among other things, asking if I was gay, cause he saw my nails, which still have their rainbow nail polish, chipped but still there. And, I fucking denied it, I said fucking no.
I wouldn't have frankly lied to the acquaintance himself, but with my friend there who didn't know, I didn't want to, and in the spur of the moment I had a failing of heart.
And after I denied that I was so disappointed in my self, I swore I wouldn't lie about it again ever, I've kinda been in a state of ambiguity recently, never claiming to be straight or gay, if someone asks, I change the subject off.
But I was sick of it after I denied it, so I did what any reasonable person would do. I drank 3 shots of tequila, and then after I was feeling just enough released of my inhibitions, I just posted that I was gay on my facebook, so finally, there can be no ambiguity anywhere, no longer can there be a single misconception among my friends, and I can be open completely.
Frankly, now I'm regretting it, but I know I won't in about a week, which is of course why I did it.
I don't even know why I'm nervous about anything, most of my friends probably won't give a flying fuck, but I can't help it.
Anyway, probably good.
Uh, I would post more things, because there probaby are more, but I don't have the energy, I just need to do my homework, and just go to fucking sleep. :P