Yeah...i really don't post nearly as much as i read. Kinda feel like a stalker sometimes, checking on other people's posts when i can and possibly putting in my two cents if i'm passionate enough on the subject or if it's someone new i welcome them with an open mind for rest and open arms for comfort, but in truth, i'm not too active here on Oasis.
I've made a couple friends on here i suppose, not too many, but enough to keep me busy when i'm tired of working or i need to bounce some new comedy material off of someone. Which, by the way, is the best thing i could have possibly done.
I was supposed to do that benefit for the awareness rally but they said i was too young. I guess seventeen is just below the legal age of performing at that specific function. It's at a college! I figured it would be fine but since i had to show them I.D. to get in they discovered that i am below legal age and told me i wasn't allowed to be an audience member there for it wouldn't be decent of them to let me be an actual part of the program. Pretty ridiculous if you ask me.
Anyway, i'm looking for new places to perform. Hopefully at a bar that's NOT renown for excessive bouncer activity. I've worked those crowds before, even if they do watch, they're pretty much just waiting for me to end my act and to announce the band (usually with a weird name like "Black Dragons" or "Skull Fuckers". No lie, those are two bands i have personally introduced onto the stage) to come up and rock the place.
I read these journals a lot like i said, and most the time i feel kind of related to the topics. Some of these topics are very controversial, which always makes me excited to be around an intellectual type. Makes me feel less alone. (Many thanks to swimmerguy, you are an inspiration.)
Other journals bring up the idea of dating. I personally have decided to wait til at least college before i get into anything serious. I refuse to have sex either. If you've read one of my few journals before it is known to you by now that i am born and raised to believe only to give your love to the one who gives it back without hesitation or question. Therefor, i will only date ONE guy at a time. And i will NOT kiss, touch, or even playfully flirt with another unless i become single again. Just the way i am. Nothing against those who disagree, but still, just the way i am.
If anyone reads this i'd appreciate it if he or she would give me a bit of advice on how exactly to aproach someone when i DO want to date.
I'm usually just all blunt but kind...like:
Me: Hey, i saw you from across the room. I couldn't help but notice that you are smiling, and that smile just seems to knock off my feet so i was wondering if i could have the honor of making you smile more often. Wanna go see a movie sometime? Or i know this nice coffee shop where i used to perform out on Main Street if you're in the mood for that.
Guy:...who the fuck are you?
And that's how my love life works.
Thanks for Reading,