Saw my counselor a couple days ago. Told her lots of stuff. It made me feel better about certain things, but we've still got work to do. She always says just the right things to lift my spirits. My counselor says she thinks my dad knows I'm gay, because he talked to her about me over the summer, but he hasn't said anything to me or anyone else. I couldn't care less if he knows or not.
Everything is weird with newspaper girl. I'm so attracted to her, but for some reason I resent her. When I see her in P.E or in journalism, I just want her to go away. It's probably because I don't like having such strong feelings for her, and somehow it makes me almost angry at her. Which is so unfair for me to do, but I can't help it. She brings out so many emotions in me. It's exhausting.
I feel like I'm waiting for something to happen. I just don't know what.