
I'm a decent person. I am. It takes more than it does some to piss me off, but now i finally know what real anger feels like!
I'm still at school, i just got out of lunch, and i'm so angry because of a rumor flying around about me
I know i know, it's just a rumour and i shouldn't be upset about something so stupid, but the tale that's being told is so incredibly offensive that i have lost all concept of courtesy with the fabricators.
I don't do drugs, i used to when i was younger as a way to escape my troubles, but i've worked through that. But many people occasionally joke with me that i'm on crack because they've heard my comedy where i act out the persona of a psychotic man on stage. Apparently some aren't justm joking. People are saying i really DO do crack. THat's CRAZY!
About a week ago i had a panic attack on the street in my town...i almost died people. The paramedics who showed up put me on oxygen and injected me to keep my heart rate down, trying to ensure i didn't have a heart attack. hey said it was stress enduced. I guess it made some sense, i am a bit of a worrier at times, but it still shocked me.
Naturally this put the fear of god in my family,and they've worried about me since. I really thought i was gonna die there.
So i was in lunch and a friend who shall remain nameless comes up to me and tells me a rumour.
Supposedly i did some crack and whacked out on the street! They said i was crying and rolling around on the ground screaming about how i thought i was drowning. Even worse! They said i got the crack by sucking dude's dick in a back alley!
I will fucking kill them!
I'm tired of being the nice guy! There's no respect left in this world for the good person anymore!
No more jokes!
I JUST DON'T CARE ANYMORE!
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I believe you...
...about being a decent person! :)
And I'd love to hear/see your comedy routine...
Hmm...
A good quote to remember is "What other people think of me is none of my business," which I attribute to Wayne Dyer, but I think he recycled as well.
So, if people spread a rumor about you, one imagines these people are not your friends. And the people who enjoy/spread the rumor are also not on your side. Leading one to wonder why you want to spend so much time focusing on people you shouldn't care about.
This especially true if you go into standup. I just saw Anthony Jeselnik tonight, and he seems to enjoy when the audience isn't on board with his oft-putting material.
But anyone in show business knows that if you play a show to 200 people, 200 opinions are formed about you, none of which you control. So, at a certain point, you just have to shut that part off and learn what helps you get accurate readings on your self, how you're feeling, and what you need. That stuff is all internal, the external world has almost no bearing on it.
Unless, of course, you give it that permission...
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"You can judge the whole world on the sparkle that you think it lacks" - Dawes, When My Time Comes (http://youtu.be/Z0FrcTX6hWI)