i volunteered a week ago to take the portraits of my classmates that the teacher wants to put around the classroom. i've been editing them since i got home. i had just gotten photoshop cs5 extended the weekend and thought that i should get used to it and, obviously, it is difficult to use. i know how to use it, but not well enough to actually make my pictures stand out. anyone who knows how to use it well, please help me. please.

my friend has a facebook page about fashion and she posts pictures of "models" regularly. when i say "models", i mean she takes a picture of the outfit the person is wearing, and not their face! i've never heard nor seen such a thing. i told her not to do it anymore because i mean what is the point of taking portraits? to show the person's fucking emotions and expressions! sorry for the foul language but it really annoys me. i also told her if she's not going to show their face, don't bother taking a picture.

i've started noticing some of the other boys at school and i thought i'd share with someone what i like about the boys i've stared at without making it obvious. there's this guy i've known for quite some time and he has big, dark brown eyes and long eyelashes and well-groomed hair. i could gaze into his eyes for hours and he is funny and smart and loves films like i do. alot of people would tell me we look the same. there's another boy with the cutest butt i've seen. i accidently grabbed his butt today but it was only a slight touch and he didn't notice, ha! there's an african-american boy at my school with the nicest green eyes and his voice is so deep and such a turn on. my voice is pretty deep, so i've been told. i know a guy that i have for almost all my classes and he's cute but what catches my eye and attention the most is that he is so intelligent. he makes me look like a lazy fascist. it's true, i was sleeping in english class for half an hour today.

i have told some close friends i'm gay and they all took it well. i'm pretty sure the majority of people at my school assume i'm gay which i don't mind so long as they don't make it such a big deal and make it seem like they care about my personal life.

i'm starting to consider transfering out of my little pilot and to another high school because it is so boring there. the leadership team that was established the previous hasn't brought any real change which i'm annoyed with. i affectionately call them headless chickens. today in history class the teacher asked if any of us would get into politics or law as a career and the school president raised his hand up. i sat behind him and said aloud, "really?" i'll try to get him and every chicken holding their titles out of there before they do any real damage. wish me luck.

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