Which is what I've been for the past 2 and a half months.
School starts on Wednesday, and I'm glad of it. I've had too much time of sitting and thinking by myself.
For some reason I've had an obsession with Mormons. I've been rereading Under The Banner of Heaven which is about them, and I've just been thinking how anyone could bear to be one.
Like, the Mormon missionaries have the following restrictions.
-They can drink no coffee, tea, alcohol, or caffeinated beverages, and can have no drugs or tobacco. (not so bad)
-They can neither masturbate, have impure thoughts, have extramarital sex, or, of course, be gay (I might have trouble with that one)
-They have to wear a hat and robe every day (ew)
-They can't read or listen to any music not produced by the Mormon Church...
I don't understand how someone could make their whole life one thing all the time, all day, their only focus, for years.
I do a lot of swimming, and I love it, and I focus on it, but I also take time off of it sometimes to play soccer, play the piano, do schoolwork and shizz.
And of course I disagree with the stupidass douchebaggery of Mormons, but spending time is thinking about it is doing no one any good. If they're happy, I should be happy too.
Ugh. I feel like I'm going crazy.
I have too much time to myself, which I usually spend watching horror movies, and reading, and building things with blocks, while drinking coffee tea all day, sometimes mixed with vodka.
Perhaps I shouldn't be so depressing. Let's try again.
Life is going pretty good. School is starting on Wednesday, and I think I'll feel better when it does, I'll have things to do, that other people tell me to do, I won't have to be forced to come up with my own ideas all day. Cause I suck at that. And I have a headache.
Fuck. Depressing again.
Whatevs. I'm not exactly on a roller coaster of happiness and joy right now, but I'm not in a deep black pit of despair either, it's more like a shallow gray pit of apathy :P
I need sleep, obviously :P I'm sorry I'm being such a self-centered dick again and posting this, but it makes me feel better :P
Night night Oasies!