SO today marked the first meeting of my GSA at school! It turned out absolutely brilliant! We had about twenty people show up with little to no advertising (only an announcement on the P.A this morning and myself telling the school music department about it) as opposed to last year's measely ten members- and that was on a good day!
Next week we'll be having a discussion about ocming out and I really can't wait! I've been asked to be a peer supporter by a guidance councellor for a grade nine who is having a hard time coming out to his parents and I love him so much already! He's so sweet and I Just want to help him so much! He's made me so happy, he tells me about how I've already helped him and he feels happy and more comfortable at school because of the GSA!
I feel like I've made a difference in lives today and it feels absolutely terrific! This is what I want to do for the rest of my life, I want to help people who are the age I was when my life started falling apart. Grade nine is when I started cutting, and it was because I felt like being gay was wrong. If I can help anybody to not deal with it like that then I can be happy! My new friend (that's what I think of him as, even though we've got a pretty big gap in age difference and I don't want this to be me helping him because a guidance councellor told me to) already means so much to me and seeing him smiling in the group today just inspired me and made me feel happier than I have a reeaally long time :D
If he ends up reading this: I hope you're feeling great and I'm always here for you :)
And to any other readers I hope you can feel as inspired as I am to make a difference today :)