I am not a social animal. Starting half a year ago, I have begun to withdraw into myself, to a position where I observe events primarily from a cold, detached perspective. I have lived in a way that I am, in a way, 'not there'. This has shaped my interactions lately. And yet, an exception has come up.
I find myself attracted to a wonderful girl. A beautiful girl. We shall call her Y. I am, I suppose, smitten.
Y is, by my views, physically very impressive and attractive. But that doesn't concern me nearly so much as her mind. She is so very intelligent. She is on par with my intellect, and we have had intelligent conversations. I enjoy that so very much.
I find myself drawn to her. My heart remains quiet, but my mind cries out with a passion. I am so very attracted to her, and I desire a relationship with her that is not based on emotion, but intellectual attraction and intimacy. My best relationships have been based on these, and I find that this is so much more pleasurable than emotional attraction. Yes, emotions may come out of it eventually, but it will not be based on these faulty and fragile chemical imbalances.
Has anyone else ever experienced 'love' this way? (I use the word loosely in this context.)