this coming weekend,, i shall be the medeival fair. i shall wear my friends dress, and she shall wear my my male stuff. tho, i have to admit, my male outfit looked pretty flamboyant anyway XD
last night was uber trippy. i kept getting these terrifying images in my head, for like 3 hours. and i hadn't even wacthed/done anything creepy yesterday, but for some reason as soon as i tried to go to bed, i had all these horrific thoughts. i bet the lord is letting satan prod me with his nightmare stick becuase i dont think he is existant.
last night, one of my ferrets escaped the house. we are lucky he decided to play in the yard and not run off into the woods.
my apetite is shot, and i dont know why. i haven't been hungry once the last two days, and those days were devoid of eating. so a few minutes ago, i made myself eat some. it didnt taste very good. it helped a bit i supose, tho.
in just under two weeks, i will be 16. big fricken deal. to tell you the turth, i would rathe not. i like my life how it is, i would rather it not change. oh well.
next year i hope to go to a camp called ten trees that is for LGBT youth. next year, due to the age bit, may be my only chance to go...you guys gotta force me to do it, cuase i will worry myself out of going and then regret it terribley. if i do,i will be away for my birthday, and i will have only one week between jesus camp and gay camp. XD what a mix. i probabley will tho. i hope i can talk my perants into it. heck, ill pay my own way if thats what it takes, even if it means not buying a bloody thing all year to have the money.
i want to spend time with my bf, becuase hes uber sweet and funny and adorable when hes around me, but he seems to still avoid spending time iwth me. i iwsh he would at least seem like he wanted to spend time around me, but he really doesnt alot of the time. and he wont talk to me about it. sigh.
why is it so hard to get ahold of people when you need to talk to them about something important, but when all you want is some idol chat its super easy to get ahold of the same people?