In summary: gender: confusing, relationships: not confusing, bloody Torchwood.

1. Gender is so bloody confusing, what even? It's ridiculous to feel like a boy who, if born male, would likely want to transition to female of some sort anyway. Oughtn't that just be called being a girl? What is up with that, self? ...Why yes, I have been reading everything on Genderfork to make myself feel better, why do you ask? Next step is rereading Gender Trouble.

2. I has a second date on Wednesday!

3. Crush of last year has ...settled? Into an awareness that at one time we were both interested in each other but the fact that it will never happen is, more than anything, inconvenient, because being in a relationship with her would be super easy and comfortable and basically everyone thinks we'd be excellent for each other and last summer was the closest four months of dating that two people can come to without actually dating. That being said? I have no particular feelings over the fact that she decided against it in the long run, and the friendship remains awkward-free, which is pretty excellent.

4. Fuck you, Torchwood, way to bring the upsetting and disturbing and all too realistic. Why do I do this to myself? When my roommate calls me screaming after he's watched the most recent episode it is not a good sign! Though my mother and I are discovering rather unnerving things about our own definitions of what qualifies as disturbing and upsetting.