Hi guys. It's been a little while.
I'm going on vacation in a few days so it's gonna be a while again. :P
But some awesome stuff has been going on recently.
Um. First. This morning I satisfactorily explained my social anxiety problems to my dad. I told him it was like everyone has lasers for eyes and anyone could just kill you with their laser beam eyes on a whim and they'd get away with it and also nobody has a conscience... I really liked my comparison but he had no idea what I was saying (probably partially my fault because my description towards him was just as articulate as I was just now. XD; ). I then explained it to him again with less lasers and more literalness so he says he gets it now. This is good because he's been really insensitive about it, but only because he didn't understand it at all, I think he'll start doing better. :)
(And I'm perfectly aware that I get super-duper insensitive when I don't get something, which is something I'm trying to work on... Butyeah.)
My dad's friend happened to be there, she said that I seem really confident. That made me laugh a little. I don't feel a bit confident, I guess I've gotten good at hiding it...? Like, I definitely have friends that, if I told them I have social anxiety, am really shy, AND introverted they'd be like "WHAT? No way!" But they've never seen that side of me.
I always figured that everyone faked it, but I guess that having to fake it to the extent that I have to is unusual...? I don't know. I don't have any idea what it's like to be other people. But considering how much people misunderstand it, I guess it is unusual. *shrugs*
She's so sweet though, my dad's friend. She's funny and nice and sings really well. She's been living with us because she's looking for a new place to live up here. (She just escaped New Jersey.) This morning she was talking about this man she has a crush on, and it was kind of adorable in a way, to see someone my dad's age get all flustered and timid about a guy. Haha. They were talking and my dad told her "just ask him out for dinner" and she was like "You make it sound so easy". I guess I kind of forgot that adults can get like that too.
Anyway, I bought a ukulele, it's wonderful and adorable. I'm gonna be carrying tons of stuff with me on vacation since I'll be on trains and buses and in other people's cars, so I figured a Ukulele is a lot more travel-sized than a guitar, and it's still very fun. :]
And I'm going to art school in less than a month which is kinda scary, but really exciting.
AND and I'm going to see a Pixies concert in October and that's super-fantastic.
I had a really wonderful conversation with my best friend last night and it's just like "AGH WHY CAN'T YOU LIVE NEAR ME." basically. I dunno, sometimes I think the distance is a good thing because I tend to get sick of people when they're around too much, but most of the time I'm just like "It'd be so nice if I could just visit you on a whim". I'd go to his house during rain storms and we'd sit outside and watch.
I could keep going on about stuff like this for quite some time but I'll stop. XD; I'm in a pretty good mood right now despite being a bit of an emotional roller coaster last night and then subsequently getting very little sleep.
Anyway, I'm gonna go back to learning songs on the Ukulele. If my printer was working I'd print a buncha chord charts for my trip but it's not. Hm.